I am a 23 year old female living in Iowa. I am a mother to a six year old boy & a soon to be newborn baby girl. I haven’t been diabetic until 4 years ago & not just diabetic type 1 diabetic. I got pregnant with my son at the age of 16 & the pregnancy was not what I had seen on tv. I gained about 100lbs along with preeclampsia as well as gestational diabetes. I had my son at 34 weeks he was an 8lb child but a premature child as well. I weighed about 280lbs after birth. I was told my gestational diabetes was “no longer a concern” a month or so after I gave birth. Now fast forward 3 years later, my son is now the age of 3 and I am now 19. Raising my child, working at a gas station, and living a not so bad life. I start to get “the flu” I believe but this “flu” happens on and off for a year and doctors in the ER tell me that it’ll pass. I am home one night my son is sleeping I start to get unbearable cramps in my legs that don’t stop then came the vomiting. I drink some water and go to sleep. Weeks pass and I am sleeping a very not normal amount and begin to not remember a thing as well as not being able to tell you what you told me fifteen minutes prior. Now one day I am napping with my son before a shift and I wake up to his father standing over me screaming that I was late to work why won’t I wake up. I’m not sure what was going on but I jump up get dressed drive to work. I get there (don’t know how I drove still to this day) opened my car door smacked my face off of it walked in and told my boss “I don’t feel ok” she told me I could leave if it was bad. So I did (also don’t know how I drove) and went to the ER, again. I get in I remember being rushed back to a bed in a drunk like state. This part is all very foggy now but after hours of blood work and blood gas etc I am told my sugars are in the thousands how am I alive…. I’m hooked up to Ivs and rushed to the ICU. Spent a couple weeks in this room being filled with information that I am a type 1 diabetic in DKA and I am very sick. I am so confused, upset, and lost. Nothing made any sense at all. I had lost 100+lbs by now and look terrible. Can’t eat rather just sleep. I had antibiotics, fluid, potassium, shots, insulin, and lots more tests. But still I was confused. I am now 23 years old and weigh about 180lbs I am 31 weeks pregnant with my daughter. My sugars are better but never great. I have had mrsa over 20 times, my gallbladder removed, a hernia repair, and much more. I want to know how I all of a sudden became a diabetic and when will the depression get better. When will it be easy to give myself shots all day. When will people stop making diabetes NOT a scary thing?