So sorry for your struggles. There is incredible evidence regarding the gut-brain connection and how depression can be affected by our digestive biome. A great resource is Dr. Kelly Brogan (holistic Psychiatrist) who has great information along with many other Functional Medicine Practitioners. I’ve recently found a good Functional Medicine doctor that through simple Biome (digestive system) tests found I have Candida, Leaky Gut and SIBO (small intestine bacterial overgrowth). I also have Hashimottos Thyroiditis – all of which can cause severe stomach pain. No other allopathic doctor has even had this discussion. I hope that you might consider this ‘gut-brain’ connection and know there are good practitioners out there who do care and will do whatever they can to get to the root cause of your distress. Best of luck to you and I sure get it ….