Oh my goodness. You’ve been and are going through SO much.
Meanwhile, just a little tidbit that may be helpful for you: With CBD oil, we each have a “sweet spot” dosage-wise depending on what our individual endocannabinoid systems required. For some people, that may be just one drop once or twice a day (yep, literally); for others, it may take a dropperful (roughly 1 ml) multiple times a day.
What I tell people who take large amounts to begin with or keep titrating up until they ARE taking massive doses is that they may be skating right past their sweet spots. If the dosage best for you, for example, is three drops twice a day, taking a “large dose” will provide absolutely no relief. Nor will one or two drops twice each day.
This is one of the most frustrating things about getting started with taking CBD oil: No one can advise anyone else what will work for them. It doesn’t depend on symptoms, age, length of illness, weight…nothing that can be measured easily. It depends on what each individual’s system needs.
Some may enjoy relief within fifteen minutes of taking their very first dose; others may notice absolutely nothing for a few months until … wow … they realize they don’t hurt nearly as much as they used to. Or they aren’t as anxious. Or they’re sleeping better. Or their lab work is within normal limits for the first time in years (or ever). Or they haven’t had a seizure in six months. The list goes on.
I don’t sell it. Well, I “sell” it in that I’m like that pushy salesperson who stands between the potential customers and the door until she’s SURE they’ve heard everything about the product that will make them soooooo happy (healthy in this case), but I don’t make a dime from my “sales” efforts. I’ve been through what so many people with chronic pain are going through, and oh how I wish someone had presented me with the facts–with the information I now know–years ago! My life improved more than I ever thought possible before giving CBD oil a shot. And I was the biggest skeptic there was in the entire history of natural medicinal healing properties.
CBD oil can be expensive, but once you find your sweet spot, it really comes down in price once you can make your own. (And it is NOT difficult, nor does it take all kinds of specialized equipment, etc.)
Just my two cents worth. Please consider giving it another shot. The website http://www.cbdoilusersgroup.com is an essential resource, as is their Facebook page (though you have to learn everything you can on your own and not just take members’ advice at face value, but that’s true with anything, isn’t it?).
I wish you the best, and pray you will be pleasantly surprised by relief very, very soon.