In the beginning of my recovery journey I was a very angry person with a chip on my shoulder. That was 30 years ago and today thanks to alot of people who cared I have been able to rebuild my life. I come from a back ground of excessive drinking and mental illness . My mom suffered from Major depression and my dad had PTSD from being a Marine in WW2. There was a lot of chaos in our lives and it trickled down hill. I am the third of four children all of whom are now in recovery from drug and alcohol addictions. We are all sober for about 30 years. They say it is in the journey not the destination and I find that to be true.I was first diagnosed with depression at 28 and it took a bit of time to stabilize me but it happened. Now to today. Life with depression is often difficult but I find that there is a gift in it all some how. I am much more understanding then I would have been otherwise. There really isn’t any thing you can tell me that I can’t understand. I am very empathetic and caring today. Not a door mat but you know what I mean. These days the depression does’t respond to meds but I have other coping stratagies that I use. Today was tough. For me the fatigue is overwelming and sometimes during the day I can’t fight it so I give myself a half hour off to just rest. Then I go back to my list of things to do and check something off. Its not a perfect system but I at least feel like I am contributing something to life.