I am 50 years old and have struggled with depression and anxiety my entire life. I was divorced for a second time about a year ago. I struggle with work because my disease makes it difficult for me focus or take interest in anything. Getting up in the morning is a major challenge. I have been on meds for 20 years and I feel that it is hopeless. Two of my kids are grown and the other is 12 and he splits his time between my home and my ex’s. I find it hard to take care of myself much less my youngest. I don’t take interest in many things. I start things and don’t finish them. I am still sad about my divorce. I am lonely. I fear things will never get better and that I will continue to struggle until I die. I am in a relationship now but I don’t know if I can maintain it. I have huge abandonment issues. Though I have been on meds and have done counseling, there is really nothing that works very well. I have no joy.