I love your description of a perfect world. Were that it was. Especially immediate access to appropriate care. Sounds like I’m not the only one who has such a hard time with doctors and insurance! All of the providers who were able to help me have retired. Finding new ones, who I like and am comfortable with, has proved to be just about impossible. The new primary physician had me in tears during our first visit. No smiles, inaccurate information, etc.
I’m sorry – went off on a tangent. What I wanted to address was hope and a reason to keep going. Hope just seems to glimmer from self-talk, prayer, and learning as much as I can. It comes and goes, tho. I have depression, I think everyone with chronic pain does. Between the pain and inability to be productive, it’s hard to maintain happiness. I think the answer is people. I try to stay in touch with old friends, make new ones, even though not often in person. Even this website helps. People are a reason to keep going, as are pets. I lost my Toby dog at 16 last Christmas and miss him terribly. He cheered me up and I would like to adopt another but can no longer afford it. Medicare has just kicked in and reduced my SS. I am grateful for what I have, but circumstances beyond my control, including my health, have altered my finances drastically.
So, more tangents, I’m sorry. I hope you have more responses from others cheerier than I. I try to avoid negativity (negative people, the news), help people when I can, read a lot, try to get out in nature. Thank all of you who remain hopeful and carry on.