My Palliative care doctor increased my Morphine 30 mg every 4 hours , put me on B12 injections and was horrified how I have been treated by doctors and being diagnosed Livedo Reticularis via google pictures, no skin biopsies. I have had nothing more than labs and being on Medicare since 2010 I have not had 14 preventive care services that I guess you are suppose to get yearly? No physical exam whatsoever ever. My Palliative care doctor sent me back to my Pain management and her RX for Morphine increase which I did not fill but gave it to my pain management person (not a doctor ? maybe med assistant) but she scolded me for seeing a Palliative care doctor and taking care from Cancer patients who are in real need and how dare I take a space/time when someone with cancer has been withheld treatment due to you. I disagreed with her and said she had no business cursing me out as she was obviously not educated on what I have been thru . So this is how my care is and how I am insulted and humilated by health pros that have no business being in the business. All the years I was a RN I never disrespected a patient but I can tell you I have been insulted , ignored more than anyone should have to endear. I am sick of seeing new doctors cause I see them once and I do bring all my records , labs , surgeries that I believed failed as I still never got a ? as to why a visible enlarged palpative lymph node dissection biopsy gave no results as all “lymph nodes fell apart during dissection” I had cording after this and still suffer with deep achy pain in that axilla, chest wall and swelling feeling that I can not tolerate a bra ( not a pretty site) but my request for eval for lymphedema fitting bra is always ignored, then after that mess up is when the same side of the enlarged lymph node surgery my shoulder ball and socket felt detached but of course the Maine X-ray showed no detachement and 2 months later moving to FL I saw DR Manseau who happened to residency in Maine and had nothing good to say about the type of delivery care, I had surgery and he told my husband ” she must of been suffering for quite some time as the ball and socket were completely detached and caused extensive damage to other structures due to delayed treatment, he did a SLAP2, Bankart repair, ext debredment and placed 4 rods , I am still in pain 2 years later so MRI showed severe Chrondomalacia (cartilidge loss ) with bicep raggeity and pins inflammed but he said “no surgery” and sent me to UF Stands Ortho for 2nd opinion and he planned to exploratory surgery but needed the surgical reports , well once he got those he refused to touch me, I want to add I was suppose to go home that day but was kept overnight for observation due to a Catacholamine attack, which was never spoke of by Dr Manseau as to why this happened. I have been thru too much only to be shot down and I am only getting weaker, fatiqued , weightloss, falls and unsteady gait. Doctors do not like patients with multiple issues but it is not my fault it is from neglect like the Fl Oncologist saying “I was too young for cancer” and my primary who sent me to him did nothing but sent me to a shrink , he was so mad at me I thought he was going to climb over the desk as he was yelling at me ” OH you think docotrs who have had years of education should consult as a team or use internet tools to educate themselves for the sake of the patient” That was my last visit and I never went back to that primary care doc. I am just plain tired and do not think anyone will take the time or trouble as I think I am too far gone and would rather just have Hospice care so I can be with my family when my husband returmns to Maine and I have to stay in FL as I can not get my meds in Maine, but Hospice will not take me cause I am not diagnosed with cancer.