father, my best friend died almost one year ago. I have never cried but now cry every day. As a doctor I have been self prescribing vicodin for 20 years. I have taken myself off of it two days ago. The shakes and the very severe depression is worse than expected. I feel the typical stong desire to end my life, and it feels close and so easy for me. It would not appear a suicide.
I am thinking these intense driving feelings will pass soon, I do not know how long I can last. I know sometimes it is a week or two, but I have been on it for 20 years.
This is the first time I have ever come out with this.
Can anybody help me without giving me a website or number to call?