Rejection from a donor’s perspective
I’m a kidney donor who donated to a relative with whom I was not especially close prior to the surgery 5 1/2 years ago. Everything has gone great until recently when my recipient had a rejection scare due to an infection that wasn’t clearing up well. Honestly I haven’t thought about rejection much since before the donation, but I find myself thinking a lot about how I’ll feel if the kidney fails sometime in the future. I find that the scare has brought up some feelings of worry about the recipient’s health but how I’m feeling is hard to explain. While I know the recipient is ok and the kidney is no longer in danger I feel kind of guilty. Like if the kidney fails I will somehow be responsible for it by not having given a “good” kidney. Are there any other donors who have experienced an organ rejection or have any of you thought what it might be like if that happens sometime in the future? Am I alone in feeling responsible/guilty?