Questioning my existence

Oh, it's wonderful that you've found a counselor to help you through this time. You were so brave to get onto this group and share how you're feeling. I found in my case that was the first and most crucial step. I tried to carry it all by myself and it nearly broke me. When I got honest about my feelings, help came rushing in. I hope this will be the case for you.

Thanks so much @gingerw youre so sweet. Wishing you a speedy recovery from your surgery.

Hi @colleenyoung and thanks for following up with me. I really appreciate you. Also thanks for the possible connection with Leroy. Maybe we will be able to lean on each other, that’s my hope anyway.

Also I was unfamiliar with the word “scanxiety” however, as soon as I read it, I knew exactly what it was, and what it feels like! Wow what a crazy feeling! Thanks for sharing this with me.

My 6 month scan is this week, Tuesday. Fingers crossed!

Thanks again. Be blessed.

I'll be thinking of you tomorrow, @kaposi.

Oh dear,
You are smart to write.
We feel YOU.

Please try this : find a park bench & sit awhile.

Get up & go home.

Repeat.

The sunshine, air, colours, people, etc. will lift you.

I promise you will feel ( slightly ) better.

Canadian Col

Thank you Ginger.

As I read the @kaposi posts, I wonder if it's OK to recommend calling 988 even after calling the 1st time? Can they advise on next steps, maybe what counselling services are available in your area to continue with?

In my area there's one called -
resolve Crisis Services
https://www.upmc.com › ... › Behavioral Health
Contact resolve Crisis Services at 1-888-796-8226 or visit our walk-in center for 24-hour crisis and mental health help, ...

I've not called 988 myself, but have contacted the above Crisis Service after my sister's attempt.

Hoping to be of some help for @kaposi to continue the outreach effort, as they've already taken the first step.

Hugs to all.

@brandysparks Like you, I have not had the overwhelming need to contact 988. That said, it seems like anyone should feel comfortable to call that number however many times they may need to.

@kaposi and so many others are hurting and in need of support. I would love to hear how they are doing today, and how reaching out to 988 has helped them.
Ginger

I am coming late to this post, Kaposi. My heart goes out to you and I want you to know that you matter and that you are loved. Please know that. I am sending my best healing vibes to you.

It sounds like you have been ALONE for a very long time. Your support system, is non available, and you have not found a way to have a family. I think you do not realize there are many, many people who are in the same boat as you, Surviving (if you can call that surviving), trying to ease the pain with medications, or alcohol and finding this does nothing, but make things worse. You have forgotten that you have the power to maybe save someone who is right on the edge today. You can do this, because you have experienced so much pain, and you know what it feels like, and you have a heart big enough to offer this help. Maybe the way to start is to find an animal in trouble at your local shelter, take it home, feed it, care, for it, see the transformation that occurs because of your gentle care, and see what this giving does for you. You may have ONE day when you no longer think about your medical condition, and how wonderful it is you can take your pet for a walk. While you are at a local park with your pet, you meet someone who needs a kind word from you, and the sun shines once more and you have made a friend. No matter what, We all find out sooner or later we NEED EACH OTHER. Hang in there, smile when you can, have a gentle word for someone who needs it today, and surprise, surprise You now have a family of your own making. No being ashamed of who or what you are. Most importantly, YOU ARE A CHILD OF GOD, HE MADE YOU, AND HE DOESN'T MAKE ANY JUNK.
Gina5009
Gina5009

that’s the best advice I’ve been given in years. Thank you ma’am so much for your care and concern. Xoxo