Questioning my existence
Diagnosed with HIV in 2021. Also discovered Kaposi sarcoma cancer at same time. Completed 20 doxil treatments. 6 month checkup July 11. I still have not told a single soul. I cannot bear to tell my family. We were estranged over 10 years when I came out. I have started smoking cigarettes and meth. I am 44 years old. I’ve never been in a real relationship. No kids, no pets, no partner. I live alone. I’m unhappy. No one benefits from me being alive. Idk what to do anymore-or if I wanna do anything. I just want to be done.