So I was prescribed opioids (Hydrocodone 5mg X 4 daily for over 10 years. Never took more than prescribed, never bought any off the street. during those 10 years, my husband died following a long illness so I became a widow. It has been 8 years since his death. 3 years ago I got off the meds. Since then life has been really messed up. I believe I could have joined the homeless had I not had an income. All the trauma/stress/grief of 10 + years came crashing down on me, leaving me in complicated grief. Which is a polite way to say I am really messed up. At age 78 I did not need this. I am isolating and going very slow to make sure I am choosing wisely. This is the 2nd time in my life the medical profession has harmed me. The first time was with the diet pill craze in the 60’s.