Need help! Depression and anxiety
I don’t know where else to go without going to a hospital. I’ve always had issues with depression and anxiety. It is tough to deal with, but I have a grasp of what it is at least. I’ve been taking 10MG of Lexapro and 1-1.5 MG of Klonopin to treat it. My psych doctor died in January and I started with a new doctor that upped my Lexapro to 20MG and put me on Buspar for anxiety.
She then decided to take me off the Klonpin. She had me go from 1-1.5 to only .5 a day a month ago and then cut me off. My anxity was already starting to increase that month, and a few days after I stopped the klonopin I faced massive panic attacks among a ton of other issues. It took some begging for help until she eventually put me on .5MG of Atavan but I don’t think it is working.
My current symptoms are this horrible brain fog that is impairing my basic functions. I forget things easily, I can’t concentrate. It feels like I’ve literally got dumber. I am clumsier. I keep almost walking into poles and today I almost got run over by a bus. I’m beyond irritable. I almost attacked a man on an elevator because of his breathing, and I’ve never had such violent thoughts before. I’ve had brief sucidical thoughts that I had to talk myself out of because I rationally know I don’t want to do that.
When I stretch my neck it hurts. It feels like my neck or back is violently ripping in two. I’m having out of body experinces. I am sitting at work and suddenly I am not sure if I am dreaming or not
I also have headaches, I’m pacing constantly. I am having muscle spasims, twitching, my hands tremble.
This is terrifying. I’ve never felt like this in my entire life and I don’t know what is going on. Is it the Buspar? The Atavan? The lack of Klonopin and should I go to the hosptial? My doctor isn’t around on the weekends. Any help will be appericated.
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I’m so sorry you’re going through all this! I don’t have any experience with the medication that you are on, but I understand how you feel to some extent with the brain fog, feeling dumber, out of body experiences and irritable. I definitely have been feeling that way with my depression medication!
Know you’re not alone! We are hear if you need to vent or chat!
All the best!
Oh it was so good to read that you have your life back. I will be praying for you that you are completely healed.
We are strong for our family, our precious little ones,
And even! relatives who do not always understand!
I appreciate your response. The psychiatrist I see has been really good to work with over the past ten years or so. I think that all the antidepressants I've taken have been ssri's.
I've read stories about ECT experiences, from one end of the spectrum to the other. It seems to be quite individualized, much like neuropathy. I'm in a better place now than I was ten years ago, and probably don't need it as desperatelyas I did then.
I'm going to look into MAOI's. Thanks for sharing your experience.
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I have just been prescribed this so will let you know