Hello. I suffer with a P.T.S.D. History . I worked as a carpenter, and machine operator. I went to school for industrial electricity, but never used my knowledge accept to wire a lamp. 5 suicides in my family. Lots of mental illness. My husband and grandfather committed suicide. I've Been in more than a hand full of unhealthy relationships involving drugs and violence abuse and homicide. My boyfriend's in jail. I like him better there. I've been hospitalized 5 times for depression, eating disorder, Suicide attempt, I've had electric shock treatment . I am a single parent of a 17 year old girl who wants to be a mounted cop, or work on the k9 unit. Just looking on the bright side today. Its raining and I love the rain. Today's a good day to ride the horse. Tomorrow might not be good for me depending on my mood swings. I look forward to your blogs.