I am a 34 year old mother of 3 girls. I have suffered from severe depression for over a year now. I just the reasons for my depression are clear, it’s just getting things back to normal again. See, my daughter was taken by her biological father on Dec. 15, 2010. And ever since then it’s been hell. I have been fighting a unjust court system that has illegally removed my daughter and has litterally destroyed my life as I knew it to be. My 15 year old daughter is still at home, and she and my husband are growing very tired of the constant mood swings, crying spells, sleepless nights/days, and the sleepy days, I have on occassion. I don’t know what to do, I don’t have the ability to do what I was trained to do (medical field) because of the constant panic attacks I have, and it even affects my ability to drive. My situation, I have hid from the world as I know it, but now, I am tired of trying to make everything okay for everyone else. I suppose the constant thought that my family would be better off without me here and the thoughts of strangling someone that has ruined my life classifies me as having severe depression.
I am tired of being angry, and I am tired of trying to be okay through all this. I am lost.