Hi there, I am a 33 year old woman, who thought I was just crazy in the head, and then I find out I have BPD. I feel shocked, scared, sad but also a little hopeful. My ex told me to seek help after I could not bear it when he told me he was not in love with me anymore, but cared a lot, it was like a knife to my heart. I just went crazy and went numb and had a moment of disassociation, apparently this is normal with BPD. I was crazy with him, we had a long distance, and I constantly had him on my mind, and was jealous he was always busy and I seemed to be just another part to his interesting life, where mine was obsessed with him and how he thought of us.
It is nice to finally know a bit about my behaviour. If any of you have any tips, it would be appreciated.