My name is not important but my struggle is real. I've been to Mayo in Rochester, Minnesota where I had my diagnosis' from back home confirmed.
I have Major Depression, Panic and Anxiety Disorder, Hyperacusis, and Chronic Subjective Dizziness(CSD).
Most people with my diagnosis struggle and fight with the fact that it really may be in our brains. They insist that it's "medical" and not "psychological". They seem to forget that their BRAIN is an AMAZING COMPLEX ORGAN and that it's still medical if your brain is causing symptoms that can be proven on a test to exist.
Well, I may be stuck like this for the rest of my life but I am not going to just crawl into a corner and die! If my brain is creating these problems then it can rewrite the program!
You see, NO one who discusses CSD as an ENT disease accepts the brain as an organ. They aren't fighting. They rely on drugs that won't cure you and no one ever states they will. The meds only make it easier to "rewrite" what the brain has created. I'm not saying it's easy, it's far from easy, but you have to want it!
My depression is my biggest hurdle. It's been there my whole life. I've been living in a survival mode since I was tiny! But I was good at it, too good at it. I didn't even know that what I did wasn't normal. It wasn't until my parents divorced when I was 25 and I had to keep my tattered family strung together that my survival mode imploded! I am now 29 and my whole life seemed to be on hold for a lifetime.I wasn't diagnosed correctly until I was 28.
I used to say that my brain stole my life from me. I had all these hopes and dreams, but I was wrong. My passions help me hold on and fight for every inch of ground I gain. I am married and it has been very very trying, but my husband's love and compassion for me is bigger than the bad days and the doctors and drugs and therapies....
CSD is a BRAIN disorder whether a trauma caused your brain to create it or it was already operating on a not so full tank. You can't ignore your brain, it will literally make you fall flat on your face if you're not careful!