Genital Herpes (HSV 2)
Diagnosed this morning with HSV 2. Already suffer from Depression and this is definitely making it worse. I've been having nothing but suicidal thoughts, even made a whole plan out of how to go about it. I'm scared. I'm freaking out. I'm never going to have a normal life again. I'm 25 years old and never thought something like this would happen to me. The guy who I contracted it from has ruined my life. Purposely. He knew he had it. And never told me anything. Not once was worried about me.
I don't understand though. I'm asking my nurses and doctors questions and it's like they don't wanna talk about it to me.
The last time this guy and I had sex was in February. His baby mama told me he had herpes. I stopped messing with him immediately. But figured she was being just a jealous baby mama. Then I had sex with a guy three months later, we had sex for four days straight multiple rounds each day. (3-4) and by the fifth day I started kinda feeling some discomfort down there. He claims he hasn't been with anyone in a very very long time. I think it came from the first guy though because his baby mama even said it's herpes. Here's the twist. He got tested at the end of March, his baby mama got tested at the end of April and both their results were negative. Is it possible for this scenario?
To test for herpes, find out you're positive, take medicine for it, then retest and it come out undetected because of medication? Or will it always test positive? I know if someone has HIV they can test negative if they take their meds regularly but its still in their body. Is it the same with Herpes?
What do you know of herpes and how much of my life is going to change? What's going to happen? How do I live a normal life? How will I ever be able to have a family much less find a man willing to accept me for this. I feel worthless and disgusting and I hate myself. I've been majorly thinking about contacting mental health but I don't want to be treated like I'm crazy.
This depression has got me with a knife to my throat because of this.