~ Finally, some success in feeling really good about me ~
Hi friends …. well, it’s been a pretty icky week, but today I really felt good about “me.” I met with my new Psychiatrist today for the 2nd time, after meeting this week with 2 LSW’s. He had discussed my “case” with them and felt like I did …. that he would just manage the medications, and if in between times we had an appt. I really hit the skids, to call him. I was so glad …. he is an extremely nice, gentle, soul. I will continue to see my therapist in MD. But, we did get talking about my family of origin, the alcohol, being an only child, etc. and he really gently drilled in on that. He said, “considering how abusive your childhood was, you did some mighty good mothering to turn out 3 kids like that.” OMG! I don’t think I’ve ever heard that before! I almost cried I felt so good. He also said, that he’s been reading an article that kids that grow up as I did, especially onlys, often come out of that home with PTSD, such as our soldiers do. Not the same things trigger it, but the same reactions. That explains so much ….. I hate loud noises, fireworks, the sound of cars crashing, someone screaming, I have a very strong reaction to anything that is surprising ….. I jump, then shake. It was a really beneficial 30 min.