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depression...

Posted by @niccy in About Kids & Teens, Mar 5, 2012

ill be honest, though im 15, i was diagnosed with depression. they sort of left me in the dark about how to handle it. they(the doctors) just give me medicines and watch me. suicide watch can be annoying, even parents, though i know they are trying to help, only seem to worsen it.
i have little to no sleep each night, and no friends. cutting is supposed to be bad right? then why do i do it?
i guess i need people to talk to that know what its like.....

Tags: mental health, sleep problems, Other, healthy living

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roxie43

Posted by @roxie43, Mar 5, 2012

Hi dear
I'm glad you got the courage to share
There is more to depression than medications
Are you in therapy? Are you cutting as a way to cope with all the pain, emptiness and lonliness you feel? Why don't you have friends? Sorry for all the questions. I'm just trying to get a clearer picture.
Please don't hurt yourself and express everything you're feeling to someone you trust like a counselor or another adult you trust. Living with depression can be challenging but not impossible and hope is so important. Some medications don't help so its important to inform your prescriber. Take it from someone with ang long hx of depression, life is not over because of it. You however have to take a vested interest in your recovery and although you may feel ostracized you should not be ashamed nor be hurting yourself. Hurting ourselves with ugly marks, that will never fade, really does not make things any better.
If you are annoyed at being watched stop the cutting. Or, are you cutting to get the attention you were lacking? It sounds like you're in pain which is normal under the circumstances but try to find healthier coping skills with your providers
Hang in there and use all of the resources available to learn more about what ails you and how you came work towards being in a safer & comforting place
It does exist so please have faith ....
Your friend Rox

anon54214697

Posted by @anon54214697, Jun 16, 2013

It's great to see people opening up and talking about depression. It's real, and it does exist.

Has anyone tried counseling consistently? If so, did it work? If not, what happened?

ezjoy

Posted by @ezjoy, Mar 8, 2012

If you are not getting answers from health care providers I'd go online. read about cutting and why you do it. See if it applies if not ask to see a counselor who does hypnosis. Ask a lot of questions and ask for help. For sleep the best thing for me was Soma Massage and accupuncture. Many of us don't sleep as we are reliving the past and it keeps us away. Soma and accupuncture help to free us from the past. it doesn't make us forget but it helps us to understand ourselves and that the past isn't important as it does even exist anymore. what's important is understanding our past and our selves and moving forward to become a better person. Also research ADHD. Many persons with unexplained depression have this. once known one can deal with it since it is genetic and there is lots of help out there. Any kind of counselling should only be cognitive therapy. Research online and learn as much as you can and do what seems right for you. I'm only offering suggestions based on my personal experience. I'd also recommend reading Miguel Ruiz's books. Start with the 4 agreements and for sure read Mastery of Love.
You have a purpose to be on this earth. you may not believe it or know it yet but with time you will hopefully know that reason. Another good book is Heal Thyself by Louise Hay. She talks about how being abused helped her become the amazing person she is today. Adversities don't last forever and they help us learn so very much. You can retrain your brain to deal with the depression and develop a wonderful sense about yourself. Hope this helps. Joy

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anon12697042

Posted by @anon12697042, Mar 8, 2012

Hello there you are brave to be in here welcome to mayo I was diagnose with depression your definitely not alone doctor advise me even if you don't want to socialize try to reach out to people get help with everybody i was crying a lot of times we still need to find ways to get better you'll be amazed people like to help .everybody is asking the same thing to me if I'm going to you know what I mean and I told them that if I do those things I am not going to heaven so I'm trying to communicate with everybody even if I don't like it sometimes i can easily get irritable /anxiety I am pushing myself up for things to feel better and people with depression it is not our fault it is the chemical imbalance of our brain please do what you enjoy , hold of big decisions, i try physical activity even if its difficult it helps me reduce my symptoms just think that we can overcome our symptoms Hang in there everything will be okey .

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bigred

Posted by @bigred, Mar 8, 2012

Hi! I know you don't know me personally. But I am your friend! I am your friend because I have a heart to love anyone! I don't know you personally but I love you and god does also! I want you to get on your knees and pray ask god to please deliver you from this and you believe it and it will happen!!!! May god bless you my friend

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anon12697042

Posted by @anon12697042, Mar 8, 2012

Hello , I was thinking about that pray and get in to our knees to god ,he will help us to this darkness
He will give us a shining light always because god love us and it feels good when you talk to him or listen to his teachings he has a purpose to all of us . God loves you .

tigger

Posted by @tigger, Mar 12, 2012

Hi Niccy,
I too was diagnosed at an early age and left in the dark. I use to throw myself down steps, cut myself, act out in class and I finally got hooked up with a good counselor who helped me through trying to hurt my self because I now know I was doing it for attention. Everyone would pay attention and I was the center of attention. Have they given you any reason why you are not sleeping? I know what it i s like not to be able to sleep until your body says forgot it and finally gives in to sleep. Have you tried meditating before you go to bed? When I do I always fall asleep, which my counselor said is a good thing.

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niccy

Posted by @niccy, Apr 4, 2012

no

piglit

Posted by @piglit, Apr 6, 2012

Hi Niccy, You know that I have had aniexty from a very young age, depression with me came later in life. Many of us have this. It can be managed with medications. In my case I can't take any due to a medical problem I have. You no my dear that to talk to people is a great help. Don't think that it has to be an attention seeking issue it doesn.t it just something that you have. Some people have diabeties etc and they are treated for the condition. It goes the same for you my sweet me and many others. I was three years old when I knew that something had occured with me, due to something that happened. Later as I became older i knew that it was anxiety. You are so young sweetie and help is out there for you. Take the chance that you have to feel better and fly with it. Try and talk to someone that can help you. I am here if you need me and you will find others in our community to. You are not in anyway alone. Will keep in touch to see how you go talk to me if you need to my sweet. Take care Piglit Try warm milk and honey before you go to bed and think of something that makes you feel happy. this may help.

partytown25

Posted by @partytown25, Apr 5, 2012

Niccy, I first experienced depression when I was 16. I was super anxious, couldn't sleep and was trying to find ways to kill myself. It sounds simple and trivial, but things turned the corner for me that first time when hockey season started and I didn't have so much time on my hands. It was a lot more serious when it reoccurred a couple of years later. I remember being sent home from emergency with a workbook on depression to look through. That was the kind of help I was offered at the start. Over 20 years though I have found things like support groups, psychologists and group therapy really help. Support groups are nice because they are pretty informal and sometimes you have the option to just sit and listen if you don't feel like saying anything. The group therapy I have been involved in is supervised, directed by psychologists and really challenged me to analyze myself. Psychologists have helped me learn new ways of dealing with challenges I have and keep me in check from month to month. I also read a bit about how you are very active in caring for your little sister. I was only 7 years older than my sister and brother, but have come to realize that I took on a lot of responsibility when it came to their upbringing that put different stresses on me. Like you, I only did it because I wanted the best for them but I realize that I really sacrificed being a kid in some ways because of it. I relate to the friends thing too. High school can be a lonely place at the best of times. Life is way better after high school, trust me on that one. I'm not going to give you a bunch of advice, you are already taking steps to figure things out on your own just by visiting this site. This is the first time I have been here, so you beat me to it!!! Keep up the good work.

Posted by Anonymous-934c9802, Apr 11, 2012

i can relate..im only 14 and my life feels like a soap orpera.....When i was12 my dad started raping me..full on then after i told someone he started emails and txtxs saying how i was fat and ugly and he did it to me cuz he knew tht no other man would want ot have sex with me and thats how the anorexia binge perge started then after tht ...i started cuting cuzof the eating diorder than i was diagonoseed with depression and bipolar/anxiety syndrome.....IM ONLY 14!!!!! i cant tell my mom tht all this happend to me cuz she sorta kinda crazy..shes knows about about my dad andd the deppresion and the bipolar anxiety buit the doctor kindly did not tell her about the eating disopders or cutting....on top of all tht i hav dislexyia.....ahhhh..any advice?

Posted by Anonymous-934c9802, Apr 11, 2012

i can relate..im only 14 and my life feels like a soap orpera.....When i was12 my dad started raping me..full on then after i told someone he started emails and txtxs saying how i was fat and ugly and he did it to me cuz he knew tht no other man would want ot have sex with me and thats how the anorexia binge perge started then after tht ...i started cuting cuzof the eating diorder than i was diagonoseed with depression and bipolar/anxiety syndrome.....IM ONLY 14!!!!! i cant tell my mom tht all this happend to me cuz she sorta kinda crazy..shes knows about about my dad andd the deppresion and the bipolar anxiety buit the doctor kindly did not tell her about the eating disopders or cutting....on top of all tht i hav dislexyia.....ahhhh..any advice?

bobehrlich

Posted by @bobehrlich, May 29, 2012

Just as with cancer there are lots of kinds of depression. IN my case I feel disconnected from the world--difficult to do anything--in a daze. No sadness, etc. but after some weeks, it gets boring and I begin to think of ending it rather than enduring it for the rest of my life. Medications for me has been a miracle--but you may have to try several to find the one for you. Lately I have been taking a drug for peol3e who cannot stay awake (modafinil) and it at least takes care of the heavy drowsiness. My internist at first would not prescr9be it but I got an email source and he relented. However beforehand I researched it intensely, carefully noted the kinds and severity of side effects.

I had the symptoms from the age of 12 got my first prescription at age 32.. Te
he point is that you have to be proactive, ask your doctor questions, if he/she is an ass, get another. read as much as possible.

Good Luck!!

miami99

Posted by @miami99, May 30, 2012

Do some sports, find a good hobby, just your environment, get a dog, I don't know. Just change something in your life. There is definitely something wrong, so you won't loose much by changing things in life. I hope it helps.

niccy

Posted by @niccy, Jun 18, 2012

aw thanks

anon44072867

Posted by @anon44072867, Jun 5, 2013

Man, don't believe in that, there is no such thing called depression. You are normal and all you have is side effects from meds. Talk to your doctor and cut all these Medication gradually. And change your core believe that you are depressed because there is no such thing. Be your self and do something you like
All human being like you but you was told at very young age that you are depressed and you believed it this is why all that is happening. Depression is made by drug company to sell medications if you don't believe me open any medical book and look under mechanism of action of the depression drugs you will find that it is unknown and no proof till now that the lake of serotonin is causing it. Break this circle and live your life. Make mistakes , get embarrassed and get loved and hurt all these are part of being human being. All of us here are the same.

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piglit

Posted by @piglit, Jun 6, 2013

There are many different kinds of depression. Yes some are elelvated by the use of medications but in many cases as in clinical depression , bipolar etc medications are required to be taken to help the people with chemical imbalances within the brain. It would be a wonderful world if people did not need a little help with medications but unfortunately not everyone is fortunate enough to have that luxury. I am a very positive person and have immense faith. I think that if we all try to rely on these things when we can its a good thing. Sweetie you are so young and I have posted to you before. Try to find an interest go for walks join a youth club your so young reach out for help and learn to fly. Take care Piglit

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