i lost a child at 2 1/2 months 7years ago still so sad any one understand this
Grief there is no time limit. It takes its course and form. One day its gone. Two years later it returns for a week... We grieve for ourselves and the missing we feel.
It's totally understandable that you would still feel sad--death is the most difficult experience for humans to cope with and nothing could be harder than the death of a sweet, vulnerable child for a mother. Guilt, even though it's not your fault would complicate this. However, I would think that you should talk to a counselor, pastor or other mental health professional to help you work through this some more. Life IS precious and your life is precious, too and you don't deserve to suffer so much. You can feel better and move on with someone else to help you, so find that right person--you owe it to yourself and the others who love you. You could be suffering from depression and there is successful treatment for that. Good Luck and don't beat up on yourself for still feeling sad, no matter what others say.
Dear Petrena, sending blessings & prayers your way. Have you found the support organization for those who know your same loss, called Compassionate Friends. http://thecompassionatefriendsfw.com/ You may find some paths to healing there.
So sorry to hear about your loss. Losing a child is one of the most difficult experiences anyone can go through. It takes strength to share your feelings and to seek comfort. Open to Hope is an open forum that allows people in all stages of the grieving process to share their experiences and provide hope for each other.