Three years ago I met a girl whom I really loved. But do to some circumstances we broke up, but still loved each other and kept in contact. Then two years ago she committed suicide. I really couldn't accept it at all and I still cant. I know she is gone but still after two years all I think about is her. After her death I started to withdraw from pretty much everyone. I don't go out anymore I don't hang out with my friends, I cant go anywhere where I was with her, I cant bring myself to listen to the songs we used to listen I just feel like I'm stuck. I keep think that I could have saved her somehow, that I could have helped her, that I should have been there and I just cant forgive myself. Imagining every day how it would be if she was still here is all I do. I failed a year in college, my job is looking bad and I just need some advice on what to do?