Hello! I've been struggling with BPD since I was 18. I wasn't diagnosed until I was 21. I would like to connect with others and talk about ways of coping with this disorder. I can't even find the words to explain how I feel other than I'm angry, depressed, frantic, anxious etc. for no reason at all. Whenever my boyfriend goes out of town for business I flip out and I don't even know why. Anybody else understand what I'm talking about? I feel as if I'm in a constant war within my own mind.