Ive had periods of depression in life, lasting a couple weeks at a time, Ive done lots of risky hellbent things in my 20’s. i had PND after each child, got back on track with Zoloft and counselling, and now my counsellor and I are getting in deep (i usually bail after about 4 sessions) but Ive been seeing her for a year now. And she has been noticing how I either come in hyped up, almost hyperventilating, 30 subject changes in one session, or low and hopeless. My doctor diagnosed as Bipolar and has put me on Epilim which so far hasnt done much but its only my second day.
Am i in denial? I feel like ‘is this true? is this real?” I have certainly jeapardised my marriage a few times from alcohol and drug abuse and dancing dangerously with flirtations with others. This happens about once a year. After our house settled I had depression, after i visited my screwed up birth family after a 5 yr absence 6 weeks ago ive been on a rollercoaster.
How do i know if its real? I can go weeks with feeling fine and balanced. But geez..when im up im up and when im down im down. I guess it probably happens 2-4 times a year.
Any feedback would be good.