Been treated for major depressive disorder for most of my life.

Posted by rose67 @rose67, Nov 6, 2016

Most of my life has been a struggle. Always having to push myself to do things. Ive been on every med for depression. Some helped with the sadness but nothing has ever helped in other ways, ie constant fatigue, low self esteem, no drive, i have to push myself to do basic things but lately can’t even really do that. I start things occasionally but never finish. Finally on my last visit with my psychiatrist he told me that he thinks the one thing that would help is taking adderal. He said that he can’t prescribe it to me because he is at the limit for prescribing this medication. He told me to find another dr to prescribe it. To tell the dr yhat he believes this will finally give me some relief. I am so desperate because i feel i am alive but do not have the strength to actually live. This is my only option now. I live in Philadelphia Pa and need to find a dr asap because i cannot go on like this any longer. I have a job but have been unable to go for 3 weeks now. Is there anyone who can recommend a dr where i live? Please help….. i am
osing hope….

@lesbatts

Hi Georgette, How goes the battle? I hope that you are doing okay. I got up at 6:30 this morning so I could curl my granddaughters hair. I hate getting up that early I will never be a morning person that’s for sure. Another thing LesBatts and Minnie1971 are both me. I tried to drop the LesBatts and change it to Minnie1971 but for some reason it didn’t work. Anyway please let us know how you’re feeling. Have a wonderful day

Minnie1971

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Thank you so much for your reply. I have another question for you the drug mirtazapine.
I have taken that when I don’t sleep very well. What are the side effects on that? Also
is it ok for me to take.
Thank you so much
Patti<

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@lesbatts

Hi Georgette, How goes the battle? I hope that you are doing okay. I got up at 6:30 this morning so I could curl my granddaughters hair. I hate getting up that early I will never be a morning person that’s for sure. Another thing LesBatts and Minnie1971 are both me. I tried to drop the LesBatts and change it to Minnie1971 but for some reason it didn’t work. Anyway please let us know how you’re feeling. Have a wonderful day

Minnie1971

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Remeron is the brand name for Mirtazapine. If you have access to a computer go to Drugs.com. It will tell you everything you need to know about Mirtazapine, there’s just too much information to discuss here, sorry.
Also you can be prescribed too much for your body, then it’s a matter of lowering the dose and trying a different dosages. Sometimes you have to come off a drug no matter how many times the dose is changed as it’s just not going to work for you.
I think I wrote on here somewhere that I’ve been on some thirty or so drugs or so. Talk about frustrating and this has been going on since 1991. I finally have found a concoction for me that’s okay, notice I say okay. This cocktail of drugs is far from perfect and I’m sure I’ll have to change things up again, as many drugs have that poop out effect and completely stop working. Anyway, sometimes I feel like going off all my meds. because of side effects but I realize that is not in my best interest. Take Care.

Good luck,
Leslie

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@lesbatts

Good luck with going off your meds. I’m Bipolar therefore I know that I’ll be on meds. for the rest of my life. That used to really bother me but I have made piece with myself about taking meds. Sure I’d like to be without them but that’s not going to happen and I’ve accepted that fact.

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I meant to say peace not piece, no wonder the english langauge is one of the more difficult langauges to learn.

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Good Morning Georgette,
I think we discussed this in a previous post and that you had decided to move back east? I’m sorry if I’m getting you mixed up with somebody else. Can you move back east? It seems that all the support you need is back east. Good luck and let us know what’s going on.

Leslie

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@lesbatts

Hi Georgette, How goes the battle? I hope that you are doing okay. I got up at 6:30 this morning so I could curl my granddaughters hair. I hate getting up that early I will never be a morning person that’s for sure. Another thing LesBatts and Minnie1971 are both me. I tried to drop the LesBatts and change it to Minnie1971 but for some reason it didn’t work. Anyway please let us know how you’re feeling. Have a wonderful day

Minnie1971

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I would like to get off Clorazapam as one of my doctors told me it can cause depression. So I’m trying to get rid of my depression by taking a drug that can make you depressed! I know I’m going to have a really bad time trying to get off from it, as I tried cutting back and the anxiety returned full force. There is a good way of getting off benzos go to benzo.org. Take a look at the Ashton Manual I did this method last time I went off from Benzos. I don’t think my new doctor would be willing for me to do this.

Leslie

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@lesbatts

Good Morning Georgette,
I think we discussed this in a previous post and that you had decided to move back east? I’m sorry if I’m getting you mixed up with somebody else. Can you move back east? It seems that all the support you need is back east. Good luck and let us know what’s going on.

Leslie

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Hi minnie…there are so many of us with no support so i am not quite sure if you are talking about my post. I am the one who lives in pagosa springs, colorado. No resources. Son died by suicide in august. Am unable to get traumatic grief counseling, as opposed to mental health counseling. I cannot move cause husband just got a new job here. Left all support and doctors in north carolina, in asheville. So that is me. Blessings

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@lesbatts

Hi Georgette, How goes the battle? I hope that you are doing okay. I got up at 6:30 this morning so I could curl my granddaughters hair. I hate getting up that early I will never be a morning person that’s for sure. Another thing LesBatts and Minnie1971 are both me. I tried to drop the LesBatts and change it to Minnie1971 but for some reason it didn’t work. Anyway please let us know how you’re feeling. Have a wonderful day

Minnie1971

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Patti,
Here is the list of side effect of mirtazapine from Drugs.com as suggested by Minnie https://www.drugs.com/sfx/mirtazapine-side-effects.html

And from Mayo Clinic http://www.mayoclinic.org/drugs-supplements/mirtazapine-oral-route/side-effects/drg-20067334

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@lesbatts

Hi Georgette, How goes the battle? I hope that you are doing okay. I got up at 6:30 this morning so I could curl my granddaughters hair. I hate getting up that early I will never be a morning person that’s for sure. Another thing LesBatts and Minnie1971 are both me. I tried to drop the LesBatts and change it to Minnie1971 but for some reason it didn’t work. Anyway please let us know how you’re feeling. Have a wonderful day

Minnie1971

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@lesbatts

I’ve found that most medications list depression as a possible side effect. I wouldn’t quit taking a med, especially one that I need and has been helping. I tried to stop Clonazepam a year ago, and found that I couldn’t do it because it profoundly affected my sleep. I started taking it for anxiety, but I discovered that it also keeps me from acting out my dreams. My wife does not want me to stop that one!

Listening to ads on TV, I hear that depression is a possible side effect of most, if not all, of them. Depression is a serious problem for me, so I pay attention whenever I start a new med, to see if there’s any change in the level of my depression.

Jim

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@lesbatts

Hi Georgette, How goes the battle? I hope that you are doing okay. I got up at 6:30 this morning so I could curl my granddaughters hair. I hate getting up that early I will never be a morning person that’s for sure. Another thing LesBatts and Minnie1971 are both me. I tried to drop the LesBatts and change it to Minnie1971 but for some reason it didn’t work. Anyway please let us know how you’re feeling. Have a wonderful day

Minnie1971

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thank you Colleen

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I am so sorry about your son, I couldn’t imagine anything worse. Can you get some counseling if you drive further? Don’t give up, keep looking for some kind of help until you find someone.

Leslie aka Minnie (I have no idea why I have two names down here, I’ve tried to get rid of one of them but to no avail.)

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Im not sure im doing this right but ill give it a try. Ive been depressed off and on for a good deal of my life. To start i was molested by my father at least twice that i know of starting at age 7. Theres just too much to say, suffice it to say i dont trust anyone especially men. And the Govt. big time. LOL. Ive been married twice and divorced twice. I have 2 great kids from my first husband, who had an affair with my brother’s wife.
It was just us three for.about 2 years and then i met someone else, at a PWP meeting. It should have stayed us 3 for a lot longer. We were together for 30 years and my heart is broken. We have been apart nw for 3 years and it feels like 30. I had a heart attack last September and it feels like it just finally cracked. Im not following my heart diet and haven’t been to cardiac rehab, for money and transportation reasons. I feel like a timebomb about to explode, waiting for the next and final one. In the meantime i get to put up with, diabetes, gastroparesis, hypothyroidism, HBP, diabetic neuropathy, lichen sclerosis. I know its a litany of complaints and i should count my blessings. I do, but im so lonely knowing i will never feel loved again or wanted. Thats enough.

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@danybegood1

Im not sure im doing this right but ill give it a try. Ive been depressed off and on for a good deal of my life. To start i was molested by my father at least twice that i know of starting at age 7. Theres just too much to say, suffice it to say i dont trust anyone especially men. And the Govt. big time. LOL. Ive been married twice and divorced twice. I have 2 great kids from my first husband, who had an affair with my brother’s wife.
It was just us three for.about 2 years and then i met someone else, at a PWP meeting. It should have stayed us 3 for a lot longer. We were together for 30 years and my heart is broken. We have been apart nw for 3 years and it feels like 30. I had a heart attack last September and it feels like it just finally cracked. Im not following my heart diet and haven’t been to cardiac rehab, for money and transportation reasons. I feel like a timebomb about to explode, waiting for the next and final one. In the meantime i get to put up with, diabetes, gastroparesis, hypothyroidism, HBP, diabetic neuropathy, lichen sclerosis. I know its a litany of complaints and i should count my blessings. I do, but im so lonely knowing i will never feel loved again or wanted. Thats enough.

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@danybegood1 Welcome to Mayo Connect and thank you for sharing your story with us. I’m so sorry to hear of your losses and disappointments. We have many people here at Mayo Connect who are sharing about these issues on a regular basis and I am sure you will find support and encouragement from many of them. I’m going to copy @colleenyoung who is a Moderator at Mayo Connect so that she can place your posting in the most appropriate group. Thanks again for joining Mayo Connect and sharing with us. This is a very supportive, caring community and you have come to a good place.
Teresa

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@danybegood1

Im not sure im doing this right but ill give it a try. Ive been depressed off and on for a good deal of my life. To start i was molested by my father at least twice that i know of starting at age 7. Theres just too much to say, suffice it to say i dont trust anyone especially men. And the Govt. big time. LOL. Ive been married twice and divorced twice. I have 2 great kids from my first husband, who had an affair with my brother’s wife.
It was just us three for.about 2 years and then i met someone else, at a PWP meeting. It should have stayed us 3 for a lot longer. We were together for 30 years and my heart is broken. We have been apart nw for 3 years and it feels like 30. I had a heart attack last September and it feels like it just finally cracked. Im not following my heart diet and haven’t been to cardiac rehab, for money and transportation reasons. I feel like a timebomb about to explode, waiting for the next and final one. In the meantime i get to put up with, diabetes, gastroparesis, hypothyroidism, HBP, diabetic neuropathy, lichen sclerosis. I know its a litany of complaints and i should count my blessings. I do, but im so lonely knowing i will never feel loved again or wanted. Thats enough.

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Thank you. I desperately need help.

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@danybegood1

Im not sure im doing this right but ill give it a try. Ive been depressed off and on for a good deal of my life. To start i was molested by my father at least twice that i know of starting at age 7. Theres just too much to say, suffice it to say i dont trust anyone especially men. And the Govt. big time. LOL. Ive been married twice and divorced twice. I have 2 great kids from my first husband, who had an affair with my brother’s wife.
It was just us three for.about 2 years and then i met someone else, at a PWP meeting. It should have stayed us 3 for a lot longer. We were together for 30 years and my heart is broken. We have been apart nw for 3 years and it feels like 30. I had a heart attack last September and it feels like it just finally cracked. Im not following my heart diet and haven’t been to cardiac rehab, for money and transportation reasons. I feel like a timebomb about to explode, waiting for the next and final one. In the meantime i get to put up with, diabetes, gastroparesis, hypothyroidism, HBP, diabetic neuropathy, lichen sclerosis. I know its a litany of complaints and i should count my blessings. I do, but im so lonely knowing i will never feel loved again or wanted. Thats enough.

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Hi @danybegood1,
I’m so glad that Teresa welcomed you so warmly to our community. I’ve moved your message to the Mental Health group. You posted just fine in the other group, but here I can connect you with others who have similar experiences. I encourage you to read through the past message of this discussion (Just click VIEW & REPLY at the bottom of the email notice.) and get to know the other members sharing in this discussion like @lesbatts @heatherf316 @sharlynn62 @aztec7557 @jimhd @brit @georgette12 to name a few.

You might wish to read through some of the other discussions in the Mental Health group too. https://connect.mayoclinic.org/group/mental-health/ Here are few I think you might be interested in:

– Depression and abusive marriage http://mayocl.in/2lGQnZI
– Need help! Depression and anxiety http://mayocl.in/2kCbo8q
– Managing Life-Long Mental Health as a Senior http://mayocl.in/2lMcQVA

Dany, tell us about the dog in your picture.

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@danybegood1

Im not sure im doing this right but ill give it a try. Ive been depressed off and on for a good deal of my life. To start i was molested by my father at least twice that i know of starting at age 7. Theres just too much to say, suffice it to say i dont trust anyone especially men. And the Govt. big time. LOL. Ive been married twice and divorced twice. I have 2 great kids from my first husband, who had an affair with my brother’s wife.
It was just us three for.about 2 years and then i met someone else, at a PWP meeting. It should have stayed us 3 for a lot longer. We were together for 30 years and my heart is broken. We have been apart nw for 3 years and it feels like 30. I had a heart attack last September and it feels like it just finally cracked. Im not following my heart diet and haven’t been to cardiac rehab, for money and transportation reasons. I feel like a timebomb about to explode, waiting for the next and final one. In the meantime i get to put up with, diabetes, gastroparesis, hypothyroidism, HBP, diabetic neuropathy, lichen sclerosis. I know its a litany of complaints and i should count my blessings. I do, but im so lonely knowing i will never feel loved again or wanted. Thats enough.

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@danybegood1 Thank you for sharing your story with us on Connect. I’m very sorry that you have suffered such abuse, especially by someone who was supposed to protect you. I want to give you the number for the hotline for help.You can call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline any time day or night at (800) 273-8255 and get immediate help from a caring person.
I’d like to ‘introduce’ you to @blindeyepug who has also suffered from sexual abuse.

Can you share a bit more of how you are feeling concerning your heart? Are you having symptoms of another heart attack?

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