Been treated for major depressive disorder for most of my life.

Posted by rose67 @rose67, Nov 6, 2016

Most of my life has been a struggle. Always having to push myself to do things. Ive been on every med for depression. Some helped with the sadness but nothing has ever helped in other ways, ie constant fatigue, low self esteem, no drive, i have to push myself to do basic things but lately can’t even really do that. I start things occasionally but never finish. Finally on my last visit with my psychiatrist he told me that he thinks the one thing that would help is taking adderal. He said that he can’t prescribe it to me because he is at the limit for prescribing this medication. He told me to find another dr to prescribe it. To tell the dr yhat he believes this will finally give me some relief. I am so desperate because i feel i am alive but do not have the strength to actually live. This is my only option now. I live in Philadelphia Pa and need to find a dr asap because i cannot go on like this any longer. I have a job but have been unable to go for 3 weeks now. Is there anyone who can recommend a dr where i live? Please help….. i am
osing hope….

@minnesota64

Hi. I am new. Just saying hello for now. In the middle of laundry, ironing and some packing for work tomorrow. Was diagnosed with severe clinical depression over 20 yrs. ago. I am 52. I think now its called Major Depressive Disorder. Whatever. Its still the same thing. Have been really depressed the past few days, so that means I stay inside and sleep a lot. I got up today at 5:30 PM. I can do that since I’m single with no kids. I’ve never been married.
Now I’m playing catch up with all that I must do to get ready for work tomorrow; For me that means I leave the country for 3 days (London.)
Take care everyone.

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Hi minnesota64. Welcome. I just found this site and i am so happy to connect with others who have similar struggles. I find that peer support, for me, is vital to manage my mental health. We are all here for you and please keep us informed as to how your trip went and how you currently feel. You have complete and absolute support and maybe something we share will even help you a little bit. Blessings

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@minnesota64

Hi. I am new. Just saying hello for now. In the middle of laundry, ironing and some packing for work tomorrow. Was diagnosed with severe clinical depression over 20 yrs. ago. I am 52. I think now its called Major Depressive Disorder. Whatever. Its still the same thing. Have been really depressed the past few days, so that means I stay inside and sleep a lot. I got up today at 5:30 PM. I can do that since I’m single with no kids. I’ve never been married.
Now I’m playing catch up with all that I must do to get ready for work tomorrow; For me that means I leave the country for 3 days (London.)
Take care everyone.

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Lesblatts, i am so excited to hear you were going to go into your studio after a year. Giant step! If for some reason you spend only 10 minutes cleaning up. That is still a huge step. Let us know how your trip goes and how opening that studio door feels! Blessings

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Hi Georgette, How goes the battle? I hope that you are doing okay. I got up at 6:30 this morning so I could curl my granddaughters hair. I hate getting up that early I will never be a morning person that’s for sure. Another thing LesBatts and Minnie1971 are both me. I tried to drop the LesBatts and change it to Minnie1971 but for some reason it didn’t work. Anyway please let us know how you’re feeling. Have a wonderful day

Minnie1971

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@lesbatts

Hi Georgette, How goes the battle? I hope that you are doing okay. I got up at 6:30 this morning so I could curl my granddaughters hair. I hate getting up that early I will never be a morning person that’s for sure. Another thing LesBatts and Minnie1971 are both me. I tried to drop the LesBatts and change it to Minnie1971 but for some reason it didn’t work. Anyway please let us know how you’re feeling. Have a wonderful day

Minnie1971

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Hi minnie1971, lesbatts, that is so nice of you to check in with me. I appreciate it. Good for you that you got up to curl the kids hair! I do nothing without coffee first! But i do remember when my children were little and it was tough to take good care of them and be a single working mother. But i did have my coffee before they got up! I am up and down. Am going slowly off meds and doing it myself. Going to bed and will check with you again. Blessings.

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I have suffered with mental illness for about 40 year now. I recently went to a new doctor and he prescribed new medication. For the last 2 weeks if I wake
up in the middle of the night sit up in bed get light headed and fall back on my pillow. I do not black out just get light headed.

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Good luck with going off your meds. I’m Bipolar therefore I know that I’ll be on meds. for the rest of my life. That used to really bother me but I have made piece with myself about taking meds. Sure I’d like to be without them but that’s not going to happen and I’ve accepted that fact.

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@brit

I have suffered with mental illness for about 40 year now. I recently went to a new doctor and he prescribed new medication. For the last 2 weeks if I wake
up in the middle of the night sit up in bed get light headed and fall back on my pillow. I do not black out just get light headed.

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Welcome to Connect, @brit.
What is the new medication that you started?

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@lesbatts

Hi Georgette, How goes the battle? I hope that you are doing okay. I got up at 6:30 this morning so I could curl my granddaughters hair. I hate getting up that early I will never be a morning person that’s for sure. Another thing LesBatts and Minnie1971 are both me. I tried to drop the LesBatts and change it to Minnie1971 but for some reason it didn’t work. Anyway please let us know how you’re feeling. Have a wonderful day

Minnie1971

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Georgette, Have you told your doctor that you’d like to reduce or discontinue your meds? What made you decide to do it on your own?

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@lesbatts

Hi Georgette, How goes the battle? I hope that you are doing okay. I got up at 6:30 this morning so I could curl my granddaughters hair. I hate getting up that early I will never be a morning person that’s for sure. Another thing LesBatts and Minnie1971 are both me. I tried to drop the LesBatts and change it to Minnie1971 but for some reason it didn’t work. Anyway please let us know how you’re feeling. Have a wonderful day

Minnie1971

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Thank you Colleen for responding. The reason I discontinued he had just changed my pills and that’s when I started getting these
spells. It doesn’t happen every night but it has happened about 2 times now and I am beginning to get concerned. The new medications
are clonazepam 1 mg the other is vexlafaxine hcl er 75 mgs one in the morning.
Will be waiting on your reply thank you so much

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@lesbatts

Good luck with going off your meds. I’m Bipolar therefore I know that I’ll be on meds. for the rest of my life. That used to really bother me but I have made piece with myself about taking meds. Sure I’d like to be without them but that’s not going to happen and I’ve accepted that fact.

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Sometimes you do what you feel is best for you. But I was getting side effects as I posted and it was concerning me. My sister
in law was director of pharmacy at a large hospital and she has always said doctors mean well but don’t really understand
what is in the med. Sometimes they cause problem instead of fixing them. Good hearing from you

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@lesbatts

Good luck with going off your meds. I’m Bipolar therefore I know that I’ll be on meds. for the rest of my life. That used to really bother me but I have made piece with myself about taking meds. Sure I’d like to be without them but that’s not going to happen and I’ve accepted that fact.

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@brit

I also take 1mg of Clonazepam at bedtime, and tried to reduce it very gradually, but I couldn’t sleep. It helps with anxiety, and keeps my wife happier because I don’t kick or wave my arms around in my sleep.

Jim

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@lesbatts

Good luck with going off your meds. I’m Bipolar therefore I know that I’ll be on meds. for the rest of my life. That used to really bother me but I have made piece with myself about taking meds. Sure I’d like to be without them but that’s not going to happen and I’ve accepted that fact.

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Hi Jim…………anything to keep us women happy. But I didn’t kick or wave my arms around!!!!!! But at least if your getting some
sleep that’s the main thing. Thanks for writing back

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@lesbatts

Good luck with going off your meds. I’m Bipolar therefore I know that I’ll be on meds. for the rest of my life. That used to really bother me but I have made piece with myself about taking meds. Sure I’d like to be without them but that’s not going to happen and I’ve accepted that fact.

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Yes, I certainly agree about doctors being clueless. I research anything I take including certain Vitamins. Like I said I’ve been on about 30 different meds. and the cocktail I’m on now is keeping me stable, but it took a long time to get it right! Lots of these meds. have terrible side effects. When I ran in to that problem I just changed meds. Me without meds. wouldn’t make it long in this world.

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@lesbatts

Hi Georgette, How goes the battle? I hope that you are doing okay. I got up at 6:30 this morning so I could curl my granddaughters hair. I hate getting up that early I will never be a morning person that’s for sure. Another thing LesBatts and Minnie1971 are both me. I tried to drop the LesBatts and change it to Minnie1971 but for some reason it didn’t work. Anyway please let us know how you’re feeling. Have a wonderful day

Minnie1971

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Hi @brit,
We took this question to a Mayo Clinic pharmacist. Here is what she responded:
“Clonazepam can certainly cause light-headedness, dizziness and drowsiness. When taking the medication at night, I often counsel patients to be very careful if getting up to use the restroom or for any other reason because the medication can increase risk of falling. If taking the medication regularly, you may become used to those side effects so that they aren’t as noticeable. Sometimes a lower dose may help to decrease those side effects as well. It’s important to keep an open discussion with your doctor so that the anxiety/depression symptoms can be well controlled.”

How are you doing with waking in the middle of the night and the lightheadedness?

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Hi everyone, i just read all the posts here and it is already february 13th, i think. I never keep track of the date and if its the 13th, then that means my son has been dead 6 months exactly. I am not recovering i dont think, but thats not my post right now. I want to add that i have been suffering from clinical depression and other stuff along those lines all my life, and i am now a senior. Along with the trauma of living with out, i had severe and continuing migraines. So i have always had a neurologist and psychiatrist at the same time. When i moved here to colorado from north carolina, i had to give up all my doctors and therapists who finally were able to be of help. I moved from georgia to asheville in 2013 and connected with the appropriate doctors.
I was in terrible shape mentally and physically. The first thing my neurologist did was send me for a neuropsychological assessment with a specialist ….a five hour session of playing card games, and putting square pegs in square holes and reciting back stories he told me, etc. Actually, it was fun. Purpose was to separate the various aspects of psych stuff and possible neuro dysfunction.
Symptoms were all over the place. No attention span or concentration, felt shaky all the time and sleep issues and other wierd things. I was severely depressed still and anxious and thought i wws going crazy.
The evaluation was…i had been given way too much clonazapam or clonapin…forgive the spelling….by a previous psychiatrist, way over what i could handle and too much cymbalta. I was totally toxic. They did affirm major depression and anxiety, and migraines were not caused by brain issues, but lots of continuing and lifelong stress.
They sent me to The Institute of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy to a well respected psychiatrist to manage meds….and sent me to a therapist who was part of the CBT Institute who worked specifically with CBT and similar modalities including neurofeedback techniques. The most important part of this was that the psychiatrist and the therapist both worked together and consulted each other on a continuing basis. They also included the excellent neurologist when needed…since i have always had to take migraine meds and psych meds at the same time….and they had to be okay to take together.
After a ton of work on their parts i was able to get better…well, as much as possible for me. I went to NAMI and DBSA meetings ….which are groups all over the country. Tons of support.

Then we moved here to a tiny town with no resources. They dont even HAVE A PSYCHIATRIST! Or the support groups i need. You have to go 60 miles away to Durango! Even the hospital is not real. If anything is really wrong, physically or mentally, they send you to Durango.

So i did connect with a physicians assistant, but the doctor is in another town. I did not go back. I just refilled the Zoloft and Wellbutrin and Valium i had been taking as i had a three month supply. So, in answer to a post from colleen, i think, i decided to cut back slowly on all meds by myself because there is nobody here. Also no NEUROLOGIST. There is no help or support for specific needs that are vital to me.

That is my experience with clonopin and over prescribing doctors who just pass out meds. The medical people in Asheville saved my life. So thats where i am right now. Sorry for such a long story. Please, guys, be grateful and take advantage of whatever good and caring professionals in your own town. You are so fortunate to have good resources around you. Blessings.

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