The short of it: As far back as I can remember, I've worried about friends or romantic interests loving me less than I do them. I'm in constant struggle with myself to get/stay content because of this fear I have that the people I love will abandon me. Notably, when I extend an invitation and am turned down I feel horribly rejected, no matter what the reason. Also, when I call or text someone important to me and I don't hear back within what I think is a reasonable amount of time, I panic and go into "they're blowing me off" mode. Then two years ago, my fiance was out with his pals, I expected a text saying he was home but never got one. About 10 minutes after I'd got up to check my phone at 3a to make sure he'd gotten home, the sheriff knocked on my door to tell me my fiance had been in a fatal accident 300 yds from his house. Since then, I am so anxious about contact with people I care about that I smother. Besides the crippling fear of losing someone like that again, I'm alternately thinking I'm being cheated on or will be or my friends are trying to ditch me. I know I'm doing it but can't stop myself from feeling completely crazy when these thoughts start to creep in. One more thing, the anxiety is worst in the morning or late at night. Yes, I'm currently looking for a good counselor for some cognitive behavior therapy and I'd like to avoid medication if at all possible. I'm just wondering if anyone else has felt like this and what they've done, besides therapy, to help alleviate the anxiety. PS- I exercise daily, eat moderately well, and fall asleep with no problem (staying asleep is a different story).