I experimented and smoked weed and afterwards I learned that weed can bring out schizophrenia in people who might have it and sometimes a person will smoke it and never feel the same for the rest of their life.
I was feeling burnt from it and around that time is when I learned about the info above. My biological father has schizophrenia.
I had such bad anxiety. I thought I might be schizophrenic.
I had an anxiety or panic attack and I thought I was I the latter category of never feeling the same.
To top it off, I believe I had this same type of attack while high. So it felt like I got high again without smoking and I thought it was me not feeling the same for the rest of my life.
It's hard for me to look into mirrors because i did when I was high. And I crawled into bed and fell asleep while high–so that is hard every night.
I have been drinking sleepy herbal teas without sugar or sweetener and I think it helps.
I will never smoke again.
I don't like the way drugs effect me; I've learned I'm pretty sensitive and it gets to my head a little.
I feel horrible almost always. Except right when I wake up, and when I am not thinking about it and asking myself if I feel normal etc, such as at dinner, or other distraction.
It is possible anxiety can ACTUALLY make a person FEEL different and see the world a little differently? based off of fear and paranoia? I want it to go away without drugs.
I have been working on thinking positive..
I'm looking forward to your comments.
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