alot, depressed ,upset, worried & not well

Posted by annie964a @annie964a, Apr 20, 2012

Hello my name is Susan ,im 58yrs old been married 42 1/2 yrs . i have lynphademia i know i didnt spell that right , restless leg symdrome ,lower back ,syatic nerver & then i fined out i have congestive heart failer & a little more . So, ive never have done this befor but, it seems i cant talk to my husband about these things , he tells me its going to be ok . i have know parents anymore , & know sisters are brothers either ,my childern i just cant talk to them about it . im afraid ,im angery,depressed,strung out i have so much meds i take it looks like a drug store. i had a brother who had congestive heart failer & it wasnt good watching him run out of breath having a hard time breathing but, he was killed befor it got him . i know it might sound crazy at my age 58 but, i just need to talk and want to cry , im lonly scared& cant tell anyone . What should i do is anyone else fell this way ? thank you all for letting me gab on and on . sin.
Susan



Hello Susan welcome here. How are you feeling today?you are not alone here. Are you on any medication to help with the fear? That is an awful feeling. Try to relax yourself any way that works. It sounds very hard for you. Please let me know how. You are doing. I truly care!! Jodi

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@jodi

Hello Susan welcome here. How are you feeling today?you are not alone here. Are you on any medication to help with the fear? That is an awful feeling. Try to relax yourself any way that works. It sounds very hard for you. Please let me know how. You are doing. I truly care!! Jodi

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hello jodi , thank you for replying to me ,it makes me fill better know people care and are int the same state im in and not the only one .im taking so much medication right now it makes me sick just looking at it all . im just wore out , i feel tiered all the time im not a speller so please look over me ,thank you . i have know energy,no appetiate at all and fill very tiered , moody & alot more. i do not like this filling at all my wieght goes up and down might be 210 one day & the next 196 ? i can get my cloths on one day & the next who knows ? well thats enough about me now . I hope things are well your way Jodi thank you again for talking with me i feel better . thank you for your time again & ill talk to u later.
sin
Susan

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@china

Hello I feel a lot like you. Sleep is not good. My mood is not good either and I have to pretend that everything is fine at work. My best friend is causing me stress with her obsessesions but I’m obligated because we grew up together. Do you ever just need a break from all friends to.

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Hello China yes you do need a break from you friends & family , I have & know onething your Not obligated to your friend just because you grew up together, your obligated to one person yourself first . try and talk to your friend and let her know how you feel and if shes your friend real friend she will understand. you are right sleeping all the time is not good for me i stayed awake all day a big start for me . thank you for getting back with me please think about what i said about obligated yourself first.
sin.
susan

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@piglit

Hi Susan Welcome to the community. You have been through alot and it’s only natural for you to feel the way that you do. Is there a counsellor that maybe you could go and talk to. You know when the physical comes in as well as the feelings depression, grief etc it becomes a real rollercoaster ride as the old saying goes. You have family in your life a husband of many years , children and beautiful grandchildren as well. Sometimes in relation to your husband it not that he doesn’t understand, he is just trying to reassure you. We have a good community here feel free and anytime to talk to me and there will be others that we be more than willing as well. Take care Piglit

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hello piglit , i went to the lake over the weekend to get away lol that was a joke because the kids followed me i cant tell them to all stay home but sometimes it would be nice toget away from all the drama . i fell down a hill saturday evening thought i go fishing and my sons pole was going crazy i jumed to get it and rolled down the hill after i fell and almost landed in the lake it was funny but i didnt want them to know i was hurt . but realy am sore & bruised but will be alright . thank you for being conserned about me i beleave im going to join everyone ,as one of the other members said sence i cant beat them join them . this is the best meds i can get . thank you
sin
susan

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@piglit

Hi Susan Welcome to the community. You have been through alot and it’s only natural for you to feel the way that you do. Is there a counsellor that maybe you could go and talk to. You know when the physical comes in as well as the feelings depression, grief etc it becomes a real rollercoaster ride as the old saying goes. You have family in your life a husband of many years , children and beautiful grandchildren as well. Sometimes in relation to your husband it not that he doesn’t understand, he is just trying to reassure you. We have a good community here feel free and anytime to talk to me and there will be others that we be more than willing as well. Take care Piglit

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Hi susan Hope your okay after the fall down the hill. Just called in home and off I go again. Will talk later Take care Here if you need me Piglit

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@piglit

Hi Susan Welcome to the community. You have been through alot and it’s only natural for you to feel the way that you do. Is there a counsellor that maybe you could go and talk to. You know when the physical comes in as well as the feelings depression, grief etc it becomes a real rollercoaster ride as the old saying goes. You have family in your life a husband of many years , children and beautiful grandchildren as well. Sometimes in relation to your husband it not that he doesn’t understand, he is just trying to reassure you. We have a good community here feel free and anytime to talk to me and there will be others that we be more than willing as well. Take care Piglit

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thank you very much .sin susan

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@china

Hello I feel a lot like you. Sleep is not good. My mood is not good either and I have to pretend that everything is fine at work. My best friend is causing me stress with her obsessesions but I’m obligated because we grew up together. Do you ever just need a break from all friends to.

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I don’t know how 2 say I need a break. Moved from Miami to be support & found a decent job but I want to go back home. Childhood friends so I try but I’m doing my than my bestie. Luv her but she’s in denial.

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@china

Hello I feel a lot like you. Sleep is not good. My mood is not good either and I have to pretend that everything is fine at work. My best friend is causing me stress with her obsessesions but I’m obligated because we grew up together. Do you ever just need a break from all friends to.

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Hi china You know sometimes we just have tofollow our hearts. You can only help your friend as much as you wants to be helped. Take care talk soon piglit

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@uptopart

Hi Susan, I may not be as stricken, afflicted, and or mentally wounded/affected like you! This what I do Know, and has experience! My health has decline, ruin, or deteriorated at the discretion, in the care of/under the jurisdiction, doing, and at the expense of another human beings, others! Thats the damn naked truth! If it had not been for the Lord; being on my side, up holding me, and staying the hand of death! I would be dead, and sleeping in my grave! Right on uptopart!

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Hi China,
Wow, what great a great boundary you set with uptopart. You didn’t own her illness or even try to fix it. Just call it what it is and tell her where to do to get her own help. Any chance you could do that with your friend’s obsessions?
LizKat

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@jodi

Hello Susan welcome here. How are you feeling today?you are not alone here. Are you on any medication to help with the fear? That is an awful feeling. Try to relax yourself any way that works. It sounds very hard for you. Please let me know how. You are doing. I truly care!! Jodi

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Hi Susan
It is so hard to discuss and process serious illnesses with close friends and family. They are scared and want you to be all right. I am sure that you are scared too. I think it is a good idea to get some support here so welcome aboard.
The weight fluctuations are likely water retention which is part of CHF. Make sure you talk to your doc about that, you might need to adjust your water pill. If the water retention were better controlled it might help with the being pooped out. I had eclampsia when pregnant and gained a ton of water. Honestly, it feels like walking in a pool.
LizKat

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@china

Hello I feel a lot like you. Sleep is not good. My mood is not good either and I have to pretend that everything is fine at work. My best friend is causing me stress with her obsessesions but I’m obligated because we grew up together. Do you ever just need a break from all friends to.

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Hi China did u say u were from fl.? I live in fl. On the gulf coast. Englewood. I agree about your comment about tolerating the cold I love the weather here it is so beneficial for fibromyalgia. How are u doing? Joanneo!

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@jodi

Hello Susan welcome here. How are you feeling today?you are not alone here. Are you on any medication to help with the fear? That is an awful feeling. Try to relax yourself any way that works. It sounds very hard for you. Please let me know how. You are doing. I truly care!! Jodi

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You have to be selfish some times and put yourself first. Easier said than done I l know.
Rox

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Hi Susan,
It’s ok to cry. For some reason we don’t feel that crying can be a good thing. After all your experiences a good cry can be a positive coping mechanism and outlet. After a good cry, I, actually feel better.
How are you feeling today? Heart disease took my aunt at 39 and my uncle in his early 40’s. Mom needs a pacemaker in a few weeks and it’s all so scary.
Please take good care of yourself and be proud of yourself for reaching out for support!
Sincerely,
Rox

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@roxie43

Hi Susan,
It’s ok to cry. For some reason we don’t feel that crying can be a good thing. After all your experiences a good cry can be a positive coping mechanism and outlet. After a good cry, I, actually feel better.
How are you feeling today? Heart disease took my aunt at 39 and my uncle in his early 40’s. Mom needs a pacemaker in a few weeks and it’s all so scary.
Please take good care of yourself and be proud of yourself for reaching out for support!
Sincerely,
Rox

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Hi Susan How are things going. Haven’t talked in a while, It is so okay to cry we all do aT diffferent times. We have a great support network here as you can see. So you will never be alone Take care Piglit Here if you need me anytime

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Hi. Sorry 4 all ur troubles. I feel the same but we have 2 be strong. I force myself 2 do things because if I didn’t depression would win. I feel 4u.

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