alot, depressed ,upset, worried & not well

Posted by annie964a @annie964a, Apr 20, 2012

Hello my name is Susan ,im 58yrs old been married 42 1/2 yrs . i have lynphademia i know i didnt spell that right , restless leg symdrome ,lower back ,syatic nerver & then i fined out i have congestive heart failer & a little more . So, ive never have done this befor but, it seems i cant talk to my husband about these things , he tells me its going to be ok . i have know parents anymore , & know sisters are brothers either ,my childern i just cant talk to them about it . im afraid ,im angery,depressed,strung out i have so much meds i take it looks like a drug store. i had a brother who had congestive heart failer & it wasnt good watching him run out of breath having a hard time breathing but, he was killed befor it got him . i know it might sound crazy at my age 58 but, i just need to talk and want to cry , im lonly scared& cant tell anyone . What should i do is anyone else fell this way ? thank you all for letting me gab on and on . sin.
Susan



Hi Susan Welcome to the community. You have been through alot and it’s only natural for you to feel the way that you do. Is there a counsellor that maybe you could go and talk to. You know when the physical comes in as well as the feelings depression, grief etc it becomes a real rollercoaster ride as the old saying goes. You have family in your life a husband of many years , children and beautiful grandchildren as well. Sometimes in relation to your husband it not that he doesn’t understand, he is just trying to reassure you. We have a good community here feel free and anytime to talk to me and there will be others that we be more than willing as well. Take care Piglit

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Susan, perhaps your meds are making your emotions worse.
Make a list of everything you are taking, how much, and when.
Find another doctor so you can get a second opinion. Get a copy of your records from you current doc and take your records and your medication list with you. You don’t have to give up the doc you have, just take your medical reords and drug list with you and GET A SECOND OPINION. It could save your life.
Some doctors prescribe medications without understanding all the side effects. Cymbalta sent me from dysthymia to manin and depression simultaneously. I attempted suicide after hitting my husband, two things I had NEVER done in 55 years of living. All medications have side effects.Suicidal ideation and aggressive behavior are two of the MANY side effects of $ymbalta.
Any illness is likely to make a person feel anxious and unwell. Your husband is trying to reassure you but he just doesn’t know what else to say.
You have to get help where you can find it. This site is a very good start. You are not alone. Yes, total strangers CAN care about each other and support each other.
Don’t worry about your spelling. Just keep typing your feelings, thoughts and worries. You are stronger than you think.

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@piglit

Hi Susan Welcome to the community. You have been through alot and it’s only natural for you to feel the way that you do. Is there a counsellor that maybe you could go and talk to. You know when the physical comes in as well as the feelings depression, grief etc it becomes a real rollercoaster ride as the old saying goes. You have family in your life a husband of many years , children and beautiful grandchildren as well. Sometimes in relation to your husband it not that he doesn’t understand, he is just trying to reassure you. We have a good community here feel free and anytime to talk to me and there will be others that we be more than willing as well. Take care Piglit

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Hi Susan, Just me again. You know sometimes we need medications to keep us well. I know that I do. I have to take a blood thinner called Comaudin. It keeps me alive. Sometimes with health issues we just have to trust the Dr that we have. If you feel comfortable stay. Certain medications do have side effects the one that I take does. But every medication doesn.t always affect one person the same. People react differently to medications. So don’t be alarmed by this. I take mine everyday and my way of dealing with it is that I need this to stay well. I find this is a good positive approach for something that I have no control over. The community here is a supportive group, but always remember that just talk if you feel comfortable to do so. . Stay postive and take care. Talk soon Piglit

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Hi Susan,
I know what it’s like to feel completely overwhelmed and hopeless. I often talk to Piglit, who is such a great person, and I too question why it seems like issue after issue have to continue affecting us.
I hope I can reach 58. I’m in my mid 40’s (old pic of a time I was less depressed) and in addition to all the trauma both sides of the family have heart disease, diabetes and arthritis ….psychiatric issues as well.
I think given all you’re going through it is understanding how you feel. Sometimes we don’t want to hear things will be alright when we have so many things to deal with.
Just remember that you did not cause any of the things taking place my dear and you have nothing to be ashamed of.
You feel lonely but think now that you have shared your story you have all of us….like an extended family and we are here for you.
Please be kind to yourself and don’t hesitate to send us private messages by adding us as your friends if you want to discuss things more privately or you can always write us in your discussion page and one or more of us will respond.
Sincerely,
Roxie

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@roxie43

Hi Susan,
I know what it’s like to feel completely overwhelmed and hopeless. I often talk to Piglit, who is such a great person, and I too question why it seems like issue after issue have to continue affecting us.
I hope I can reach 58. I’m in my mid 40’s (old pic of a time I was less depressed) and in addition to all the trauma both sides of the family have heart disease, diabetes and arthritis ….psychiatric issues as well.
I think given all you’re going through it is understanding how you feel. Sometimes we don’t want to hear things will be alright when we have so many things to deal with.
Just remember that you did not cause any of the things taking place my dear and you have nothing to be ashamed of.
You feel lonely but think now that you have shared your story you have all of us….like an extended family and we are here for you.
Please be kind to yourself and don’t hesitate to send us private messages by adding us as your friends if you want to discuss things more privately or you can always write us in your discussion page and one or more of us will respond.
Sincerely,
Roxie

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Thank you for your kind words Rox. Always remember that Roxie is right sweetie, that we are here and we will support you in anyway we can. Take care Piglit

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@roxie43

Hi Susan,
I know what it’s like to feel completely overwhelmed and hopeless. I often talk to Piglit, who is such a great person, and I too question why it seems like issue after issue have to continue affecting us.
I hope I can reach 58. I’m in my mid 40’s (old pic of a time I was less depressed) and in addition to all the trauma both sides of the family have heart disease, diabetes and arthritis ….psychiatric issues as well.
I think given all you’re going through it is understanding how you feel. Sometimes we don’t want to hear things will be alright when we have so many things to deal with.
Just remember that you did not cause any of the things taking place my dear and you have nothing to be ashamed of.
You feel lonely but think now that you have shared your story you have all of us….like an extended family and we are here for you.
Please be kind to yourself and don’t hesitate to send us private messages by adding us as your friends if you want to discuss things more privately or you can always write us in your discussion page and one or more of us will respond.
Sincerely,
Roxie

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Hi Roxie,
thank you for being so concerned i realy appreceat it, lol never was a speller i spell it as it sounds to me .. ive woke up with this head ach again , i take so much meds it pathedic ,theres times id like to throw it away but, i know i need it. i have so much toget done we are going down to the lake today “cabins by the lake’ to help clean and get it ready to open. im glad thet i can add you as my friend. can you tell me where go to add you? thank you again will talk to you later .
sin.
Susan

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@roxie43

Hi Susan,
I know what it’s like to feel completely overwhelmed and hopeless. I often talk to Piglit, who is such a great person, and I too question why it seems like issue after issue have to continue affecting us.
I hope I can reach 58. I’m in my mid 40’s (old pic of a time I was less depressed) and in addition to all the trauma both sides of the family have heart disease, diabetes and arthritis ….psychiatric issues as well.
I think given all you’re going through it is understanding how you feel. Sometimes we don’t want to hear things will be alright when we have so many things to deal with.
Just remember that you did not cause any of the things taking place my dear and you have nothing to be ashamed of.
You feel lonely but think now that you have shared your story you have all of us….like an extended family and we are here for you.
Please be kind to yourself and don’t hesitate to send us private messages by adding us as your friends if you want to discuss things more privately or you can always write us in your discussion page and one or more of us will respond.
Sincerely,
Roxie

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Hi Piglet,
thank you for replying back to me ,you just dont know how that makes me fill. i have alot to do today going to the lake to help get it ready to open . i have this head ach again i woke up with it again, i get so tiered og it but iguess ill have to live with it. ill talk to you later on thank you again .
sin.
Susan

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@dohomework

Susan, perhaps your meds are making your emotions worse.
Make a list of everything you are taking, how much, and when.
Find another doctor so you can get a second opinion. Get a copy of your records from you current doc and take your records and your medication list with you. You don’t have to give up the doc you have, just take your medical reords and drug list with you and GET A SECOND OPINION. It could save your life.
Some doctors prescribe medications without understanding all the side effects. Cymbalta sent me from dysthymia to manin and depression simultaneously. I attempted suicide after hitting my husband, two things I had NEVER done in 55 years of living. All medications have side effects.Suicidal ideation and aggressive behavior are two of the MANY side effects of $ymbalta.
Any illness is likely to make a person feel anxious and unwell. Your husband is trying to reassure you but he just doesn’t know what else to say.
You have to get help where you can find it. This site is a very good start. You are not alone. Yes, total strangers CAN care about each other and support each other.
Don’t worry about your spelling. Just keep typing your feelings, thoughts and worries. You are stronger than you think.

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Hi Dohomework,
thank you for responding back to me it makes me fill humon again just know people do care even when they dont know me. i have alot to do today going togo daown to the lake and clean to help get it ready to open . ill talk to you later thank you again .
sin.
Susan

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@roxie43

Hi Susan,
I know what it’s like to feel completely overwhelmed and hopeless. I often talk to Piglit, who is such a great person, and I too question why it seems like issue after issue have to continue affecting us.
I hope I can reach 58. I’m in my mid 40’s (old pic of a time I was less depressed) and in addition to all the trauma both sides of the family have heart disease, diabetes and arthritis ….psychiatric issues as well.
I think given all you’re going through it is understanding how you feel. Sometimes we don’t want to hear things will be alright when we have so many things to deal with.
Just remember that you did not cause any of the things taking place my dear and you have nothing to be ashamed of.
You feel lonely but think now that you have shared your story you have all of us….like an extended family and we are here for you.
Please be kind to yourself and don’t hesitate to send us private messages by adding us as your friends if you want to discuss things more privately or you can always write us in your discussion page and one or more of us will respond.
Sincerely,
Roxie

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You are more than welcome to add me as a friend as well if you would like. Have a great day. You’ll have lots to tell us later. Take care Piglit

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Hi Susan, I may not be as stricken, afflicted, and or mentally wounded/affected like you! This what I do Know, and has experience! My health has decline, ruin, or deteriorated at the discretion, in the care of/under the jurisdiction, doing, and at the expense of another human beings, others! Thats the damn naked truth! If it had not been for the Lord; being on my side, up holding me, and staying the hand of death! I would be dead, and sleeping in my grave! Right on uptopart!

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@uptopart

Hi Susan, I may not be as stricken, afflicted, and or mentally wounded/affected like you! This what I do Know, and has experience! My health has decline, ruin, or deteriorated at the discretion, in the care of/under the jurisdiction, doing, and at the expense of another human beings, others! Thats the damn naked truth! If it had not been for the Lord; being on my side, up holding me, and staying the hand of death! I would be dead, and sleeping in my grave! Right on uptopart!

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What the heck is your problem. Sleeping in your grave. Go to the nearby hospital and check yourself in you need a vacation.

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@uptopart

Hi Susan, I may not be as stricken, afflicted, and or mentally wounded/affected like you! This what I do Know, and has experience! My health has decline, ruin, or deteriorated at the discretion, in the care of/under the jurisdiction, doing, and at the expense of another human beings, others! Thats the damn naked truth! If it had not been for the Lord; being on my side, up holding me, and staying the hand of death! I would be dead, and sleeping in my grave! Right on uptopart!

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Hi china so well said Take care Piglit

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@uptopart

Hi Susan, I may not be as stricken, afflicted, and or mentally wounded/affected like you! This what I do Know, and has experience! My health has decline, ruin, or deteriorated at the discretion, in the care of/under the jurisdiction, doing, and at the expense of another human beings, others! Thats the damn naked truth! If it had not been for the Lord; being on my side, up holding me, and staying the hand of death! I would be dead, and sleeping in my grave! Right on uptopart!

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you are so right the LOrd is my all, i have fallen alot and He has picked me up not once but several times . Yes He listens to me day and night 7days aweek 24 hrs. aday . The Lord said he would not put anything on me i can not handle . Sometmes i forget and have togo back & remind myself im not alone . thank you very much for your respond, i need to tell myself suck it up and remember to thank our Lord everyday for all good & bad things no matter what .
thank you
sin.
Susan

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Hello I feel a lot like you. Sleep is not good. My mood is not good either and I have to pretend that everything is fine at work. My best friend is causing me stress with her obsessesions but I’m obligated because we grew up together. Do you ever just need a break from all friends to.

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@uptopart

Hi Susan, I may not be as stricken, afflicted, and or mentally wounded/affected like you! This what I do Know, and has experience! My health has decline, ruin, or deteriorated at the discretion, in the care of/under the jurisdiction, doing, and at the expense of another human beings, others! Thats the damn naked truth! If it had not been for the Lord; being on my side, up holding me, and staying the hand of death! I would be dead, and sleeping in my grave! Right on uptopart!

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Thx

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