@mamasitalucita Your thoughts and concerns are more common one most will admit. The doctors and counselors know the difficulties that you must be going through so it is part of there responsibilities to help you through your feelings to get to the route of what you need. Discussing ones concerns to a stranger or someone that you can feel to be completely open is a normal process. Talk as much as you like on any topic you like and slowly hopefully you will be able to open up to your counselor. If you still you can't I suggest to preach this concern with your counselor and that can be explored. I understand your thoughts of being strong for your children. But sharing a little bit with them will surprise you how they will take it and how much they will be helpful. Children as well as adults fear more of what they do not know or understand than if it is explained to them. You might be surprised. The important thing is for you being comfortable. You could discuss your childrens concerns with your counselor and that may give you more comfort to talk to your counselor about your concerns. I am glad you found faith to help you through your troubled times. Open up your self to others, families and relatives. I think it will take some of the weight off your shoulders.

You are so strong to be able to take care of kids, a husband, and to hold down a job, I can't do much of anything if I get really sick which hasn't happened to me in a long time. Thank God!