I don't want to die. I'm a mommy and a wife.

Hi @kelimarie,
Welcome to Connect. I'm so glad that you found us. I'm. The Community Director here and I'm going to help you connect with others here in our community. You are not alone!

You may find this thread on another forum interesting to read too http://www.virtualhospice.ca/en_US/Main+Site+Navigation/Home/Support/Support/Discussion+Forums/I+am+living+with+serious+illness/2012_03_26_18_07_49_Your+legacy+~+What+to+leave+behind+for+your+loved+ones_.aspx

Your fears are understandable. Living in the here and now is so important. Being with your partner and child, what are the memories you want to make with them?

Colleen
Connect Community Director

@kelimarie Welcome to the forum. I'm so sorry you are in this situation and I wish I could give you a big hug. Do you feel like talking about it? What makes you think you are about to die? What symptoms, what doctors have you seen? What tests have been done? Have you gotten 2nd opinions? Why do you ask, quote "How can I prove to my family that they are my reason for living when my life is over?"

Please get this all off your chest, right here right now. Rant,, cry, vent, scream. We're listening.
Sending healing thoughts and prayers to you,
Sue

Hi @kelimarie, I just wanted to check in and let you know that I'm thinking of you. Sue and I are here whenever you feel like talking.

@kelimarie hi my friend and sister in Christ just want to say stay encouraged with God all things are possible without Him nothing is possible..stay connected to Him and you will come out Victorious..if you ever want someone to talk to I'm here..again I say Be Encouraged..Godbless Peace

I hate to ask, but what is happening now that could take your life?? briansr

Sending hugs & prayers.

I'm not sure what medica problems your having but I can tell your about to break down emotionally. I would be glad and privileged if you would like to talk about it. My username is briansr. Just click on my name and our talk will be private or post your message and you will be surrounded by people that truly care and will make you feel right at home . briansr

I think I can understand part of the fear that might be affecting you at this time. Let me give you an outline of what I have faced in 77+ years of life and where I am today. I'm in Hospice for cancer and have no fears of what tomorrow may hold. I started out as a childe and went through 4 stages of Epilepsy. Grand Mal. Petit Mal, Jacksonian and now Partial Complex. Not to mention Migraine headaches at the age of 13. I sought to learn one item at a time about those conditions. Then at Stanford's doctors library, I learned about the mind, fear, anxiety and trend of though, It changed my life. Since, I learned how to enjoy items I liked and change to doing them at times of increased anxiety. Music can relax your mind many times easier than some medications. Playing games. Like playing cribbage, solitare, bingo can and will often be able to change the course of your fear. Conversations with friends is another element that is often usable. With my Grand Mal seizures, when I blacked out--"there was no guarantee I'd wake up." Growing through those things taught me what Franklin Delano Roosevelt said "the only thing we have to fear, is fear itself." Try to live one day at a time and enjoy it as fully as possible, since many of us may not be here tomorrow.

Best wishes.
irvkay312

What an inspiring post with very broad applicability. Ultimately we determine how we accept the challenges that life sends our way. May you continue to serve as a role model.