Lifelong Struggle with Depression, Feeling Lonely with It

Posted by Xin @xin, Mar 30, 2012

Just want to talk with others who have had a lif long struggle with depression. Feeling quite lonely with it. I know others who seem to have overcome it completely. I have certainly had some good times but also countless recurrences. Very discouraging!
Xin

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@azure

Xin, I'm sorry your also going through this. Like marylynette said, you are not alone. I'm suffering also. As I type this I'm in tears. Feeling alone is one the most awful feelings. My friends are scattering. Who wants to hear your problems...they have their own. My Husband is supportive...amazing he is still here. Just waiting for him to get sick of me too. I hope you feel better. I really do. I wish this would stop and we could have 'normal' lives. I wish that for everyone. I don't see me getting better. Everyday I'm worse...I'm desperate. Scared. Hopeless. Anxiety is off the charts. I don't know what to do. Are you any better?

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Hi Azure. So sorry to hear your so upset. It is not a great feeling to feel alone. I used to feel the same way about my husband and he is still with me thirty years on. Just take one day at a time. Anxiety levels will elevate the more upset you get. Try not to be too scared, and hopeless, everything will be okay. You know when I feel like you do I try to think of things that make me feel a liitle happy. Walking and open spaces are good if you are feeling high in anxiety, going for a coffee. Try my dear to focus on someone anything apart from the way that you are feeling, it only has to be for a while, You know there is nothing wrong with having a good cry every know and again.it helps sometimes
Remember my sweet, that you are not alone I am here for you as are other members in our community, Just talk to us and we will help anyway we can. I know what you are feelingI am know 55 years old and have anxiety since I was very young and depression came later for me. Think positive and rely on your inner strength and the support that you have around you in us. Let me know how you are Talk soon Piglit

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@marylynette

Please know that you are not alone, and you have found a place in this community where you will be able to find all the support one can hope for on the web. My life has been one filled with depression, I have overcome DID, and now live with treatment resistant depression. Learning to accept this illness is a big step in the battle, knowing that mental illness is no different than other illnesses also helps. Unfortunately depression is an invisible disability that is misunderstood by many who have never experienced it. Aren't we lucky to have those good times which help to keep us going! I know that for me, a faith in the Lord has been a tremendous help, I know He has been with me my whole life. Talking about your feelings is very helpful, and I have found writing a journal also helps. I will never be cured of my depression according to my docs, so I am learning to accept it and live with it. I have severe PTSD and in my picture I am with my service dog, Yorrdan, who has become a great comfort to me. I am also blessed to have a husband who has struggled to learn and understand my illness, he has been to therapy with me and is now learning to become the caregiver that my physical health requires. Remember that we each choose how to live our life, we decide to accept and conquer the dragon challenges that we must face. But we need not try and do it alone, there are others who will help and listen. And a good therapist and psychiatrist have been a wonderful part of my healing....
You will be in my prayers, and I hope that this site will help you learn to live with depression that may never go away.

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Hi Xin, I have struggled with aniexty from and young age, depression later in life. It sure is not a good feeling when you are feeling lonely. I always try to keep positive and my inner strenght whidh we all have within is helps and alot of faith, We have such a great support group here and it is wonderul that we can all be there for each other. There are many downs with depression but the ups overide them in time. Take care Piglit

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Hi
Welcome and know that you're not alone. I have dealt with depression all my life. Although, I have been able to function until last year and present well inside I was broken and no medications helped until Remeron and then ECT.
Life is difficult for everyone but living with depression can be so difficult at times and when you ad other elements like migraines and insomnia oh boy it can be a struggle.
Try being good to yourself and finding things to do when you're not feeling your best even if you have to force yourself.
Try to have a good day & remember we are all in this together.
God bless
Rox

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@margareto

so, so hard for you. Please take or try to take one day at a time. Surround yourself with upbeat people and get involved with volunteer work. Once you find something you really love to do, e.g. gardening, etc., you will look forward to each day. God bless you.

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Dear Xin: Yes, LET US PRAY. I certainly will remember you in my prayers. Believe me, answers come. So, try to stay well. God Bless.

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@marylynette

Please know that you are not alone, and you have found a place in this community where you will be able to find all the support one can hope for on the web. My life has been one filled with depression, I have overcome DID, and now live with treatment resistant depression. Learning to accept this illness is a big step in the battle, knowing that mental illness is no different than other illnesses also helps. Unfortunately depression is an invisible disability that is misunderstood by many who have never experienced it. Aren't we lucky to have those good times which help to keep us going! I know that for me, a faith in the Lord has been a tremendous help, I know He has been with me my whole life. Talking about your feelings is very helpful, and I have found writing a journal also helps. I will never be cured of my depression according to my docs, so I am learning to accept it and live with it. I have severe PTSD and in my picture I am with my service dog, Yorrdan, who has become a great comfort to me. I am also blessed to have a husband who has struggled to learn and understand my illness, he has been to therapy with me and is now learning to become the caregiver that my physical health requires. Remember that we each choose how to live our life, we decide to accept and conquer the dragon challenges that we must face. But we need not try and do it alone, there are others who will help and listen. And a good therapist and psychiatrist have been a wonderful part of my healing....
You will be in my prayers, and I hope that this site will help you learn to live with depression that may never go away.

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Greetings Piglet! From the GREAT WHITE NORTH! Snowed all day yesterday & night & night before & most of the day. This is the most we have had all winter. This is April 14th! It is supposedly spring now. Not great for depressives. No sun makes an even darker mood. I don't know if we all find that dull days affect us that way?? Not finding the Cymbalta helping much yet. How long oh Lord?? It is good to just vent on line here & not have to try & put on The Act. ("How are you?" " Oh fine, fine & you? . . . .etc, etc,) Big fake smile & the small talk. But of course, one can't be bleeding on people. Even the ones that really care get tired of hearing the same old sighs, I'm sure. I am tired of myself, for goodness sake!! Enough whining! Hope yall feelin' betta, now, ya hear!?!

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@marylynette

Please know that you are not alone, and you have found a place in this community where you will be able to find all the support one can hope for on the web. My life has been one filled with depression, I have overcome DID, and now live with treatment resistant depression. Learning to accept this illness is a big step in the battle, knowing that mental illness is no different than other illnesses also helps. Unfortunately depression is an invisible disability that is misunderstood by many who have never experienced it. Aren't we lucky to have those good times which help to keep us going! I know that for me, a faith in the Lord has been a tremendous help, I know He has been with me my whole life. Talking about your feelings is very helpful, and I have found writing a journal also helps. I will never be cured of my depression according to my docs, so I am learning to accept it and live with it. I have severe PTSD and in my picture I am with my service dog, Yorrdan, who has become a great comfort to me. I am also blessed to have a husband who has struggled to learn and understand my illness, he has been to therapy with me and is now learning to become the caregiver that my physical health requires. Remember that we each choose how to live our life, we decide to accept and conquer the dragon challenges that we must face. But we need not try and do it alone, there are others who will help and listen. And a good therapist and psychiatrist have been a wonderful part of my healing....
You will be in my prayers, and I hope that this site will help you learn to live with depression that may never go away.

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Hi Xin, Nice to hear from you. I.m lucky we have sunshine at the moment. I'm okay thanks. You know that this is a great support group and you should never really feel that any of us get tired of hearing about how each other are. The beauty of this is that we don't have to put on a fake smile etc. We accept each other for who we are and are no way judgemental of each other and our feelings. I know that I never get tired of hearing the same old thing. We are all here to understand, care and listen to each other. Hope your meds work for you soon, Keep positive it always helps. Talk soon Piglit

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@marylynette

Please know that you are not alone, and you have found a place in this community where you will be able to find all the support one can hope for on the web. My life has been one filled with depression, I have overcome DID, and now live with treatment resistant depression. Learning to accept this illness is a big step in the battle, knowing that mental illness is no different than other illnesses also helps. Unfortunately depression is an invisible disability that is misunderstood by many who have never experienced it. Aren't we lucky to have those good times which help to keep us going! I know that for me, a faith in the Lord has been a tremendous help, I know He has been with me my whole life. Talking about your feelings is very helpful, and I have found writing a journal also helps. I will never be cured of my depression according to my docs, so I am learning to accept it and live with it. I have severe PTSD and in my picture I am with my service dog, Yorrdan, who has become a great comfort to me. I am also blessed to have a husband who has struggled to learn and understand my illness, he has been to therapy with me and is now learning to become the caregiver that my physical health requires. Remember that we each choose how to live our life, we decide to accept and conquer the dragon challenges that we must face. But we need not try and do it alone, there are others who will help and listen. And a good therapist and psychiatrist have been a wonderful part of my healing....
You will be in my prayers, and I hope that this site will help you learn to live with depression that may never go away.

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Thanks Piglit: Good to hear from you too! Just really going thru DEATH VALLEY lately. Finding it impossible to "get a grip". Just need to keep reaching to anyone who will listen & hold my hand. Hard to find anything hopeful in my life now or in the future. Please keep talking to me everyone. Is life really worth living? So what if we feed the hungry, clothe the naked; shelter the homeless and do all manner of good things. We are all going to SUFFER & die in the end. Probably the sooner, the better before we start to have expectations. Sorry for all this Piglit; I'm probably dragging you down with me.

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@marylynette

Please know that you are not alone, and you have found a place in this community where you will be able to find all the support one can hope for on the web. My life has been one filled with depression, I have overcome DID, and now live with treatment resistant depression. Learning to accept this illness is a big step in the battle, knowing that mental illness is no different than other illnesses also helps. Unfortunately depression is an invisible disability that is misunderstood by many who have never experienced it. Aren't we lucky to have those good times which help to keep us going! I know that for me, a faith in the Lord has been a tremendous help, I know He has been with me my whole life. Talking about your feelings is very helpful, and I have found writing a journal also helps. I will never be cured of my depression according to my docs, so I am learning to accept it and live with it. I have severe PTSD and in my picture I am with my service dog, Yorrdan, who has become a great comfort to me. I am also blessed to have a husband who has struggled to learn and understand my illness, he has been to therapy with me and is now learning to become the caregiver that my physical health requires. Remember that we each choose how to live our life, we decide to accept and conquer the dragon challenges that we must face. But we need not try and do it alone, there are others who will help and listen. And a good therapist and psychiatrist have been a wonderful part of my healing....
You will be in my prayers, and I hope that this site will help you learn to live with depression that may never go away.

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Hi xin, Don't ever think that you are dragging me down. Your not. Listen to Momentum his words are so true . He is a very wise person, and has lived through so many experiences, we can learn from his words, He is also a very dear friend of mine. We are both here for you. You know it is good to get out, we all need to leave the isolation of the four walls. There is a world out there. Sometimes when things get on top of us we just have to try to be a bit stronger. I always say that we have to spread our wings and fly a litttle more. Have expectations in your life. Dreams are always possible we just have to follow them sometimes. You know I have been through up and downs too as Momentum and many others. We just have to realize that the challenges that sometimes are put in front of us somehow in the end make us stronger. Look back on things that you have gone through and I.m sure theres positivity somewhere in there. I am here for you as is Momentum we can talk and listen, help as much as we can. But at the end of the day Sweetie, you also have to help yourself a little along the way., we all do Take care here if you need me Piglit

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Yes it's a yoyo game that get you up and down. The loneliness itself causes much trouble for everybody let alone someone who had depression. Talking isn't really helping us if there is no understanding and compassion involved.

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@iraku

Yes it's a yoyo game that get you up and down. The loneliness itself causes much trouble for everybody let alone someone who had depression. Talking isn't really helping us if there is no understanding and compassion involved.

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Hi compassion, understanding, caring and just to have someone/people who will listen is so important. Its has always been like being on a rollercoaster ride for me up and down for many years. Talking is a great way to release the way you feel, you will always find that I have good listening ears as so do others . Take care Piglit

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