Dear Anonymous: Thank you for your response. Depression just won't let one realize one's blessings. One just sees "Doom, Defeat & Despair". I do have some perfectly dear, dear freinds and without them I would probably not be here. Spring will be a great mood lifter, at least mostly it does and I'm anxious to get some garden dirt under my fingernails; to be able to sit on the swing on my deck and watch the flowers grow and hear rhe birds. (Always - anytime but now and anyplace but here!) I have started a new anti-depressant, Cymbalta, which,if it helps, my psychiatrist recommends I stay on for the rest of my life. She says a life-long depression like mine cannot be "cured" but with the right medication and if I am at last worked through an early PTSD with therapists who specialize in this, I may finally get some lasting relief. LET US PRAY!!

Dear Xin: Yes, LET US PRAY. I certainly will remember you in my prayers. Believe me, answers come. So, try to stay well. God Bless.