depression...

Posted by Niccy @niccy, Mar 5, 2012

ill be honest, though im 15, i was diagnosed with depression. they sort of left me in the dark about how to handle it. they(the doctors) just give me medicines and watch me. suicide watch can be annoying, even parents, though i know they are trying to help, only seem to worsen it.
i have little to no sleep each night, and no friends. cutting is supposed to be bad right? then why do i do it?
i guess i need people to talk to that know what its like.....

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i can relate..im only 14 and my life feels like a soap orpera.....When i was12 my dad started raping me..full on then after i told someone he started emails and txtxs saying how i was fat and ugly and he did it to me cuz he knew tht no other man would want ot have sex with me and thats how the anorexia binge perge started then after tht ...i started cuting cuzof the eating diorder than i was diagonoseed with depression and bipolar/anxiety syndrome.....IM ONLY 14!!!!! i cant tell my mom tht all this happend to me cuz she sorta kinda crazy..shes knows about about my dad andd the deppresion and the bipolar anxiety buit the doctor kindly did not tell her about the eating disopders or cutting....on top of all tht i hav dislexyia.....ahhhh..any advice?

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@bno48997

i can relate..im only 14 and my life feels like a soap orpera.....When i was12 my dad started raping me..full on then after i told someone he started emails and txtxs saying how i was fat and ugly and he did it to me cuz he knew tht no other man would want ot have sex with me and thats how the anorexia binge perge started then after tht ...i started cuting cuzof the eating diorder than i was diagonoseed with depression and bipolar/anxiety syndrome.....IM ONLY 14!!!!! i cant tell my mom tht all this happend to me cuz she sorta kinda crazy..shes knows about about my dad andd the deppresion and the bipolar anxiety buit the doctor kindly did not tell her about the eating disopders or cutting....on top of all tht i hav dislexyia.....ahhhh..any advice?

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Just as with cancer there are lots of kinds of depression. IN my case I feel disconnected from the world--difficult to do anything--in a daze. No sadness, etc. but after some weeks, it gets boring and I begin to think of ending it rather than enduring it for the rest of my life. Medications for me has been a miracle--but you may have to try several to find the one for you. Lately I have been taking a drug for peol3e who cannot stay awake (modafinil) and it at least takes care of the heavy drowsiness. My internist at first would not prescr9be it but I got an email source and he relented. However beforehand I researched it intensely, carefully noted the kinds and severity of side effects.

I had the symptoms from the age of 12 got my first prescription at age 32.. Te
he point is that you have to be proactive, ask your doctor questions, if he/she is an ass, get another. read as much as possible.

Good Luck!!

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Do some sports, find a good hobby, just your environment, get a dog, I don't know. Just change something in your life. There is definitely something wrong, so you won't loose much by changing things in life. I hope it helps.

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@miami99

Do some sports, find a good hobby, just your environment, get a dog, I don't know. Just change something in your life. There is definitely something wrong, so you won't loose much by changing things in life. I hope it helps.

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aw thanks

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Man, don't believe in that, there is no such thing called depression. You are normal and all you have is side effects from meds. Talk to your doctor and cut all these Medication gradually. And change your core believe that you are depressed because there is no such thing. Be your self and do something you like
All human being like you but you was told at very young age that you are depressed and you believed it this is why all that is happening. Depression is made by drug company to sell medications if you don't believe me open any medical book and look under mechanism of action of the depression drugs you will find that it is unknown and no proof till now that the lake of serotonin is causing it. Break this circle and live your life. Make mistakes , get embarrassed and get loved and hurt all these are part of being human being. All of us here are the same.

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@anon44072867

Man, don't believe in that, there is no such thing called depression. You are normal and all you have is side effects from meds. Talk to your doctor and cut all these Medication gradually. And change your core believe that you are depressed because there is no such thing. Be your self and do something you like
All human being like you but you was told at very young age that you are depressed and you believed it this is why all that is happening. Depression is made by drug company to sell medications if you don't believe me open any medical book and look under mechanism of action of the depression drugs you will find that it is unknown and no proof till now that the lake of serotonin is causing it. Break this circle and live your life. Make mistakes , get embarrassed and get loved and hurt all these are part of being human being. All of us here are the same.

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There are many different kinds of depression. Yes some are elelvated by the use of medications but in many cases as in clinical depression , bipolar etc medications are required to be taken to help the people with chemical imbalances within the brain. It would be a wonderful world if people did not need a little help with medications but unfortunately not everyone is fortunate enough to have that luxury. I am a very positive person and have immense faith. I think that if we all try to rely on these things when we can its a good thing. Sweetie you are so young and I have posted to you before. Try to find an interest go for walks join a youth club your so young reach out for help and learn to fly. Take care Piglit

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@roxie43

Hi dear
I'm glad you got the courage to share
There is more to depression than medications
Are you in therapy? Are you cutting as a way to cope with all the pain, emptiness and lonliness you feel? Why don't you have friends? Sorry for all the questions. I'm just trying to get a clearer picture.
Please don't hurt yourself and express everything you're feeling to someone you trust like a counselor or another adult you trust. Living with depression can be challenging but not impossible and hope is so important. Some medications don't help so its important to inform your prescriber. Take it from someone with ang long hx of depression, life is not over because of it. You however have to take a vested interest in your recovery and although you may feel ostracized you should not be ashamed nor be hurting yourself. Hurting ourselves with ugly marks, that will never fade, really does not make things any better.
If you are annoyed at being watched stop the cutting. Or, are you cutting to get the attention you were lacking? It sounds like you're in pain which is normal under the circumstances but try to find healthier coping skills with your providers
Hang in there and use all of the resources available to learn more about what ails you and how you came work towards being in a safer & comforting place
It does exist so please have faith ....
Your friend Rox

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It's great to see people opening up and talking about depression. It's real, and it does exist.

Has anyone tried counseling consistently? If so, did it work? If not, what happened?

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