How do I get some sleep?

I pulled your boo boo, and didn't scroll, I have no clue why they think it's arthritis, As my doc put it, I have entered that elite age group. As for the shots...well...I haven't asked. I'm scared of needles. and as for the cramps,I've actually suffered from them all my life. They got really bad after my final growth spurt. I went from 4'9" to 5' in about 2-3 month period. That's an inch a month. The most painful summer of my life. (I was 16) but I am thankful for the extra 3". I might ask tomorrow, that's when I see my doc. I really have to thank you. You've opened up my eye's to a lot of things I wouldn't have put together. Like the side effects. I woulda just kept goin' on thinkin' I was just crazy. I see him at 11, It's like thirty miles of traffic so it'll be around 3 or four before I get back here. But I will let you know what he says. Especailly if it has to do w/ the RLS meds I'm on . I'm doin' some stuff w/ my new toy here(I got a printer/scanner ). so I'll check back later 🙂

Scroll down your comment from yesterday. O.K?

Wow Kiddo, youmade my day. your last note was very moving to me. I have to thank u also. You really are helping me too. It is very satisfying to be able to share from all this suffering and experiences that us folks are going through. The spouses see it and they can be so wonderful, but for someone who has the same miserable sensations in their body is able to relate so uniquely. My wife has witnessed me twitch, spaz, contort, twist and turn, That is so damn embarassing to male or female, She has watched me weep like a little kid when I would never have considered it even possible . Went to war at 18 yrs old and never felt like crying, ;but give me 3 or 4 bad episodes of RL freaknS, and I turn to Goo!!! Like you Lady S, I really don,t know where this will all end, but I keep saying "it could be worse", It could be worse", I have found the medical community down here totally uncaring, ignorant, apathetic,unprofessional and generally speaking....... in medicine for status ant the$$$$$$$. I realize there is only so much that they can do, but down here, it is like I,m teaching them and then I become lab-rat #1. my Nero dude did know about the foundation but has never taken the time to say much about it. {and he is suppose to be the best locally for RLfreaknS. Last visit, He threw his hands up and said the same thing that the sleep cliknic dude said. "david I'm out of bullets. see me in 4 months" Tell me S, what the hell is that. MAN!!! I,ll never get over that one. GOOD LORD SOOOOO SORRY!!! Evough of this. Oh, b4 I forget, RLS is thought to originate at the base of the spine. Sure enough, when it is hittn hard., that feels about right. just a reminder .... write down all the issues that u want addressed when u see the DR tommorrow. It is so helpful to do so. I did not know that growth spurts did that. Maybe that was dress rehearsal for what was to come. Maybe it made u tougher than u give yourself credit for.......Maybe.... just maybe lil suhcuddo is tough as nails just battered and bruised.a little. Don,t fear a needle that can make your pain and headaches go away. Best way to handle it is to psyche-up, get real angry and say DO IT. it is over in a flash. with a qualified shooter, u won,t feel much at all. they numb it as they go. I smiled when u said your Mr. slept till 10 since retirement. He probably earned that. I wish we all couild do that. Retirement is 'iffy at times isn't it. It seems to be really harder on the wives. Good lord Im ramblin here. very sorry but you are a good ear. Hopefully, tomorrow will be a good day for u and the Dr, will have an epiphany about some of your concerns. I will pray hard for that tonite when I, idleing around. Hope you get some sleep.....{comfortably] until later lil buddy. ................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

up again at 12:30am geeezze!!!!

I forgt to give you super "props". for your smoking decrease. Wow, that is impressive. I'm a little jealous but "way-to-go kiddo" If u can do that , then u can do anything, and I mean anything______.There is interesting research out there on just how hard that is so brag on yourself....u earned it. I,m really anxious to hear how your trip to the Dr. went. Is it a good Dr. or one like I have. This is why I went on the Mayo c site in the first place. Quiet frustration with the locals. Today was a rough day with the RLS. Evening meal triggered major waves. Dear God, when will this let-up a little...........................hope to hear from u soon

Well, What can I say? I've been w/ my doc for about twenty years now and this is the first time I've been at odds w/ him. I wrote all my symptoms down, first mental, then physical, he took a quick glance and said it's "Clinical depression" he wants me to stop taking the muscle relaxers and start taking an anti depressant. He too don't seem to think my pain is real. I thought he did. but he says theres nothin' in the ct scan. and that the pain is coming from the depression that was triggured by the accident. Well that much is true I am depressed, and it's caused from the accident., but it's because of the pain I'm feeling from the whiplash not the other way around like he's suggesting. That was my G P, I can't get in to see the Nero doc til after Jan, I'm thinkin' on finding one down here that is in the office more than once a month. See I used to live in Seattle and so that's where all my docs are. But I am haveing thoughts of finding new ones down here. As far as a nero doc, goes I've only seen him once. See it took almost ten years for my GP to decide I needed to see one. So, there I am I feel like I'm back at square one. Well, I figure I'll take the meds like he wants me too then when I go back in three weeks w/ no results we'll know the truth. Right?
But We went driving around to do a little reminiseing afterwards. It was o.k. They really have it tore up up there. It was weird seeing 1/2 the viaduct gone. But I sure don't miss the traffic. And I don't drive!! I never have, never learned.
I have a question for ya, And your wife might wanna know too, How come you guys get to "retire" but we housewives don't? My other 1/2 claims that it's because he works harder, but I beg to differ. Though I'm gladf hes home more now. If I can get to relax in the car again, we can ressume our day trips.
I miss those. Chat w/ ya later 🙂

OMG it is so good to hear from u. It,s 9;30 here and the meds are kickn my butt for now, but I know that I,ll be up in a few hrs to respond to your note.........and man I gotta express feelings about your trip to MD.....Much more ASAP. So sorry for t he delay........PS...........I sure don,t sense any depression

OK, now it's 2:10 and sure enough, here i am again. Lord S, I dont't know where to begin....... I got it'... we'll answer your last question first bout retirement....... My other 1/2 says EXACTLY SAME THING about retirement. so here is my take on the subject{remember, it's only an opinion based on life's experiences}. He is right about working hard but, not hard{er}. A research article yrs. ago said that if fulltime moms/housewives were paid, your salary would be well over$ 120,000 per yr.Does that tell ya who works hardER??? Your role is vastly underappreciated and under estimated for the very reason that u asked the quiestion........it NEVER ends. A good wife is the Best of the Best. and really hard to find. God Bless Ya for being just that. Let me kknow when you cash all of your backpay checks.........We will fly up and all celebrate.......teeee heeeeee!!! No seriously, it really comes into focus w/retirement cause u are together so much more after yrs. of the Mr.going to work every day. That's a keyword, Lady S, g__o__i__n__g to work. One of the big perks of your job was it was AT home. Make any sense??? Mine has some strong opinions about this issue after 5 yrsof it. Quite an adjustment to say the least. Hope to be able to share a little about my hobbies w/ya sometime._________ok now her we go about your trip to MD. I had better cleanse the air b4 I comment cause I feel that I need to choose my words CAREFULLY. After a short time, u are dear to me and I don't want to blow it.{disclaimer].........I have no right to express my views and i do so only at your discretion and with your permission. I don't want to overstep my bounds as a buddy and I have no credentials except past and present EXPERIENCES and opinions only.I an basing my comments on my senses that God gave to me and I feel that u are really quite something. we are all so special as individuals and we walk the earth for such a short time. I' m honored to have turned to the laptop one day recently out of quiet desperation and randoml;y found a little gem in the sand asking about getting some" sleep"..........U.. I have no alterior motives for what I say and I don't expect anything from anyone. except kindness earned. I mean no harm and this is all new to me as well so please keep all that in mind........OOOKKKKK?????? whewww!!! Honesty feels sooooo good!!!! Gonna set a record for l___0___n___g with this one. Might have to go to chapters.. Your DR sounds like a schmuk. Good Lord.....What,,,,,, he cameup with that gameplan all by himself. I know he obviously knows u better than me, but he is full-o-sh__! {sorry} I guess he said that after spending the alloted 15mins. with you?????? man-o-man!!!! I'm gonna scroll up to read it again...........Nothing in the ct scan huh' well look again dammit. Pain like that is" 'all-in-your-head" ...yeeahh and my neck too kinda like u are becoming a pain in my butt DOCTOR!!!!! These guys. these freakn'guys. They just don"t get it. u drive thirty+ miles to get some help and u get that. Hmmmmm maybe time for a 2nd opinion. I know that could be very difficult and pricey but please give it some thought. He sounds like the MDs down here.Since u don"t drive u may feel like u are too much trouble but u are not when it comes to your health..I know I'm right on at least that. {scrolln back up}. Yea, chronic pain, stiffness and such is depressing to EVERYONE not just us and certainly if the DR had a dose of whiplash with a sideorder of RLfreaknS ,tjhen he migfht have a different attitude.That dosesn't mean prescribe psyche meds. They are so quick to enlist more into the Prosac Nation with these damn meds. I'm telln ya they are killn us. I got sent to psch. dr. last year after having no sleep for 3 months and he said only cause the psch coulld write scripts that he could not. Great!!! Now I have the stigma of needing a psche Dr. when all it was is that I NEEDED SOME SLEEEEEPPPP. It is so ironic that 1st tool in CIA torture is sleep deprivation. and we live with it and nobody gives a sh--! Wow I'm on a rant, lady S , but it feels so gfood and I hope you are feeling it too. Gotta take a break.. be right back........ok back now...... had to go calm down.sorry! it's just that I know he knows you a thousand time better than me and I'm not qualified to say these things ,but they are all too familiar and they paralell my experiences. {note} I no loinger go to that lil psyche Dr.. she used me as a lab rat and damnnear killed me. Here is a misspelled list[partial} of the chems that she freely wrote up....seroquil,depacote.trazadone,and about 3 others that had horrible effects when I was only sleep deprived an once iI finally purged and got a little sleep I came around. Truthfully, she did more harm than good. and I suspect it was done only for the $$$$. I'm worse off now cause of RLs and really don"t know what the next step will be. That and the sleep clinic Dr were two BIG mistakes even in my other 1/2's opinion. Ok , back to u. {scrolln} come on ,S, if it took him 10 yrs to refer u to nero what does that tell ya? Enough already. I'm just disappointed in the trip also but i am so glad u&yours got to cruise down memory lane a little. I understand completely. FANTASTIC!!! That is the best therapy.. Gittn out and enjoying life a little. Y'all deserve more of that.....we all do. {scrolln} Since i have never felt IMPACT like u ' then I can only imagine. Sure it's hard to relax when u are reliving that rearender over and over. I mean....... ouccchhhh.....that sh___ hurt. {sorry for explatives} I'm gettn a little tired now and I don"t know if I have helped or hurt u so I bettrer shut-up for now. as usual, I'm anxious to hear back , but don't feel obligated. miss ya!

Before I start, Let me give your wifey a little saying that may help her along while trying to clean around the new enity(That's what I call it hehe) "Man works from sun to sun, a womans job is never done." Yes, thanks to my parents I have a saying for just about every occation out there. I just can't spell them. Believe it or not I have a A.A. in English. You like to voice my thoughts don't you. Do ypou believe in kindered spirits? That's about what it feels like. I've had one sleep study done and they had me take my meds for it. I remember even w/ the meds I was having some pain and tightening and they claim they saw nothin' on the monititors or what ever that thing is they look at. I think your right it's time for me to find a nerologist and just have a complete work up done. There are too many little things that bother me that my currant docs are ignoring, like the fact that my right side is suddenly weaker that my left,when I'm right right handed. I don't want to but I might have to go back to P.T. but like you said, I don't like being a bother and where I am there are no buses. I am faithful in doing my exercises, but to no avail. Maybe I'm just not patient enough. Turns out the meds he put me on is the generic Zoloft. That's got me nervous I've got multi care all around me so I 'm going to give them a shot. ....I just took a small break to read what I've got so far and boy! Am I jumping around or what? I guess that's a side effect of poor sleep huh? I did'nt do too bad last night, I got to sleep around 2:30-3:00, than up at 5:30. I don't even bother going to bed til around 12:00 I used to go to bed around 10:00 but if I do that these days I'll be up at 2:00 w/ no hope of going back to sleep. Normally I'd be in the living room playing my P.S.2, Thank god for video games they really do help take your mind off things. But my other 1/2 decided to get w/ me and so he's watchin' the news for about 20 minutes, I'll go in there and he'll be snoozin' away. I'm glad one of us can get some sleep. And that means I can come in here and chat w/ you. I still have to write my sis too. I've been putting off though "cause she tends to side w/ the doc, But I still love her. Well, I'm gonna go rest my neck. (having pain right now.) I'll write ya more later.

Well good morning!!!! You are up and at them huh. Nice to finally have company. Did u get the email address? I'm so ignorant.. Don't know if that is best or not. u be the judge. I sure like your attitude this morning. luv the expressions that u are passing to me. it is true, y'alls work is never done.....but it can be minimized if we just help whenever and however we can. Housetraining 101 should be mandatory for hubbies. Man' I,m gonna catch hell for that. {it's true isn't it}. How in the world could they not see the pain waves on their monitors. Maybe they were asleep or playing scratch&tickle. B.S!! Allow me to share my experience {1} w/sleep clinics. the most recent was a hoot. After it was determined that I only had RLfreaknS they looked disappointed cause I didn't n need their lousy C-pap $$$$$$$machine the attitude went to nothing. The P.A.'s last statement was "sorry dude" I fired him........................Zoloft huh. Now isn't that special. Your left side will now go weak to match the right side and you will just oozze around the house like a wet noodle. Jjuussst great! {be careful my dear, please........pleeeeazzzze} Any changes for the worse' then flush em. P.T. might be good but here is an idea. What about a GOOD female chiropractor.{if there is such a thing}??? I said female for a reason. So far the males ain"t cuttn it. Mine or yours!! It is a long shot but ask some of y our freiends to see if they know of anyf any............ They have a bad rep. but if u can find one ' well just maybe.... it could help. They treat similar cases all day... hey i'm proud of ya for doing the exercises. That is a good thing...Go girl.By the way......the answer is YES I do believe in k. spirits. I felt it right off. Pain shared can link strangers quickly.. I have questions about your RLS if u don't mind. Mine seems to be morphing again and I'm freakn a little bit.. more soon.