@1nan Reading your post again this morning, the doves are cooing, over-wintered Canadian geese are honking. A brilliant sunshine is making its way through the laundry room windows on the east side of the house, belying the fact it is only 30 degrees outside. In the waiting period that I am in right now, juggling new diagnoses and previous ones together, these things remind me that life goes on regardless. A mix of feelings and emotions are normal, and those of us with life-altering situations see these in enhanced lights. Worry, questioning, fear. But also, gratitude and peace.We seek out whatever distraction may appease the frenetic merry-go-round inside our heads, realising "it is what it is" until we have concrete paths to adjust to and follow.
I am grateful to read your words. May we all learn from each other, support and grow with each other.