Dear One,

I have never been on this site before, I rarely surf the internet and I never click on pop-up ads (which is how I came to this site and found your message.) So maybe it was an act of God prompting me to find and respond to you. I am so sorry to hear of your many losses, and the pain you are experiencing. I thank you for sharing and expressing this suffering so well; my mother-in-law is experiencing many of the same losses and you have helped me to understand her feelings. Dear lady, I hope that you never give in to the temptation to end your life, despite the challenges and hardships you are facing.

It seems to me that you expressed in the beginning of your message, the very thing that could be your lifeline. It sounds like you are really a giving person, and right now you aren't able to give to people in the way you had been used to doing. A wise spiritual director once told me, when I was suffering deeply and tempted to despair, that I should find someone who suffers like I do, and give to them. Maybe that is your "act of God'; maybe that's what you are being called to do. You mentioned that at times you feel grateful - that is inspiring! It is in our weakness that we are strong, because our compassion and love can help us to give in a way that is greater than what we could otherwise have done.

I think you have a lot to give, you just need to find a way. I'm not a counselor or medical person, just another soul who has suffered with PTSD and other losses in life, and discovered that there is a gift even in that.

I will pray for you, and ask all of my friends to pray for you as well, that you will gain strength, hope, and health each day...that you will receive your "act of God" and that the God who loves you so dearly will send you the right person(s) to help to relieve your suffering and help you to find hope and purpose again.

Please don't give up, dear lady. Even though I don't know you personally, I do know that you have an important part to play in this world, and that your love and compassion has and will continue to touch souls. You have touched mine.

Blessings,

Kathy

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