@debraannk, it is sad and sometimes it is near impossible to share that sadness with the people around you. Few people get it. But we do here on Connect. You have an open invitation to lean on our virtual shoulders any time, just to cry, to say "I'm sad" with no additional explanation necessary.
When my father passed, people were afraid to talk about him with my mom. They thought it would remind her that he was gone. As if she could forget! That people didn't talk about him made her sad. She didn't want people to forget him. Sometimes the memories brought tears, sure. But as time passed, the memories brought smiles too. What would you like us to know about your Kevin?