My AF comes and goes, but it reoccurred also recently, maybe due to family issues. Stress seems to set mine off, as does getting too tired. I can keep it at bay for months if I'm careful, but lately it's back, and it happens at night too. I wake up in the middle of the night almost every night, and lately I can feel my heart miss beats. It feels like it wants to race, but I'm on Diltiazem which keeps it from going crazy. The doc said it's OK if I take magnesium, so I might test a low dose to see if it helps.
I don't think I'll ever get used to this. I was diagnosed in March and it still makes me anxious and sad. Other people who have had it a long time said I will get used to it, but so far I haven't. The worst part for me is knowing it's for life and I'll be on these expensive drugs for life and that I might die if I quit taking the drugs. I hate the dependency and I hate my heart not beating right. But, eventually I hope I learn to live with it all. My family still doesn't get that I have to be careful. They expect me to be as healthy as I was, able to do anything at any time, travel and keep all hours, stay up late, put a lot of stress on me, etc. I'm venting. I can't vent to them because they don't get it. Only people with afib get it.

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