Hi, @minneapolis123 – Welcome to Mayo Clinic Connect, a safe place where you can talk — even about the tough stuff. I’m so sorry you are going through this. Understandable how difficult it can be to deal with depression and the future possibility of multiple myeloma. If you are comfortable sharing, what is the diagnosis you've been given by the oncologist that makes it likely you will develop multiple myeloma?
It’s important to know you are not alone. I’m tagging @gingerw@parus@1nan@marvinjsturing who have dealt with similar issues and may be able to provide some support. @lioness@jakedduck1 also may have some thoughts for you. Members on Connect are here for you, and I'd encourage you to keep posting.
If at any point you start to feel like you may consider hurting yourself, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 for immediate help. Your safety is the most important thing. I believe that reaching out to talk to a professional shows strength.