Long-term depression

Well, y'all I have hit bottom. I need to have a purpose. I once was a high achiever and goal setter. That person is gone. Will keep trying to find that person. I need to see the PCP and after a horrific visit there I am terrified to return. That has nothing to do with depression. Again, the whole body is connected. Going no where. I want to work and it is no longer an option. Suck it up. At least I keep my habitat clean. No dirty dishes in the sink, not a lot of dirty clothes scattered about, trash piling up or other things that are associated with depression. Is what it is...continue blindly on.

At times long term depression can seem like a death sentence and t'would be easier to stop trying. Somehow I am not wired as such. Keep on trudging

Like so many others who have posted here, I too have struggled with depression for many years. I have found finding a good doctor, therapist and support group has helped me. Eating healthy and keeping active have helped me. I’ve had dogs all of my life and pet therapy - walking my dog has helped also. I don’t know if you have a faith or religion, but that can add to being able to help. If all else fails remember this too shall pass and keep on doing til you find out what helps you. Maybe you also will be able to help someone else in their struggles.

Hello @daisy54 and welcome to Mayo Connect.

I appreciate your encouraging words. I look forward to hearing from you again. It sounds as if you have learned a lot about coping with depression. I hope you share more in the future.

If I may ask, how long have you been in recovery for your depression?

Teresa

Days flow like sorghum.

I feel the same, I’m really struggling with depression and anxiety is skyrocketing the past year. I can’t get a handle on the anxiety, it just came upon me suddenly the last year and half. I get anxious with any docter appointment, and it is severe. I have fibromyalgia and SAD, plus depression may also be genetic. I’m become sensitive to many meds. I have one of the best psychiatrist for many years, and just learned he is retiring in June.

I have been isolated more than usual with losing a daughter the past seven tears, and as the grief lessened I then came upon the issues of aging. Also with fibromyalgia you become accustomed not to do like others,

This is my first post, so will close with I hope sharing helps.

Yes, I am experiencing depression, worse with cold weather and lack of sun. I use light therapy, but the weather has limited getting out.

@french Anxiety is so uncomfortable. Depression is bad enough on it's own. Sorry for the loss of a daughter-likely you have shed 7 years plus of tears. Fibro can be isolating and I have learned that isolation is better than doubt and discrimination because of what is now labeled an "invisible" illness. I see this term often and find it irritating. Other illnesses are invisible too.
Aging can be a scary thing. Our bodies change-why it is called a 2nd childhood. When young learning new things were exciting and fun (at times). Now we are learning to do things that once were easy.
I too get anxious about nearly everything. My life is full of"what if's?" Sound familiar?
Keep posting as you can.

Same here. The cold and my old bones no longer are companions. Even light therapy does not help.

I too have been depressed, with anxiety, PTSD. Trauma for over 2 years since I had a series of life devastating events and Burnout in 2015. The depression was starting to lighten a bit until I was retriggered a few months ago .... now the depression is almost worse resulting in hopelessness and despair. I understand this is part of the journey and disease. I also understand why I'm depressed but just having a hard time since nothing appears to be working much since I was retriggered. I've tried a few different medications but have a strong aversion to medication (due to childhood trauma) but know that at this point meds might be very helpful if the right one is found. I'm also an emergency first responder and healer myself and now experiencing the "perfect storm" at age 60. My life's complex trauma and grief along with current stressors have caught up to me to be addressed. Curious how others deal with the hopelessness and despair? I really struggle in the mornings since I have not be able to work much at all for 2 years now because I feel so ashamed of my situation and work really triggers me .... those feelings of failure and worthlessness. Also, my family is doing the best they can to support me but they are also becoming distant because they no longer know how to help or support me .... that is devastating because it reinforces the abandonment and feelings of failure ... thank you for the opportunity to talk .... bless you all ...