@scottbeammeup
Thanks for reaching out to us. I too have had some real stress years but nothing like yours.

Can I suggest possibly reaching out to a counselor that specializes in life events like this? For us on MCC (at least for me), hard to know what to say to help.

I was diagnosed with PTSD anxiety/panic disorder back in 2015. Several medical reason, my time in Vietnam, incidents as a police officer, family. My primary care doctor referred me to Mayo Psychiatric department. I was at first embarrassed. But when I met counselor of just how common my feelings were it made me relax. With consultation and medications I have been able to have a normal life but with my sadness always right there.

I do see the psychiatric counselor/medication specialist every 6 months. Back in 2015 I had many test done and all were at the extreme levels for PTSD and anxiety/panic disorder. In the last 2 years I lost two nephews (one to cancer the other overdose), both brother-in-laws (one to covid), and my only one sibling my sister who had no other family member alive other than me.

I was handling it so much better that I thought I should. I discussed with with my Mayo specialist at Psychiartic Department and she stated the prescription I am on helps keep a hormone up as a certain level. I will be on that drug for life.

I mentioned this as a lot of us shy away from seeking counseling like I did for so many years. Consider it as have this level of stress on you it can help. As I mentioned hopefully I was able to pass on my experience with this and what I did. I feel for you and it comes from empathy of me losing so many family relatives under some really stressful circumstances.