Boppi, I've been caring for my husband with Alzheimer's for several years. Somewhere along the way I came across this quote from Jon Kabat Zinn, "healing - coming to terms with things the way they are." I keep it posted where I can see it often. So "where to I go from here". I focus on bringing love and kindness into each day. It has been transformative for both of us. Another quote that has been helpful to me as a caregiver was from On Pluto by Greg O'Brian who lives with Alzheimer's. His words, "I don't trust my brain anymore, so I follow my heart."