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A mother desperate for answers and help with depression!
I am new to this community. I haven't really had anyone to talk to about my problems and how I should handle things. I have tried to talk to my husband, after all I have known him for nearly 20 years. I don't really have any friends, and I can't expect a 15 year old to understand how I feel when she is worried about what her friends at school are doing all the time, and boys. My 18 year old daughter doesn't live in the house any more and she was never one to care about anyone else. So, I have sought out help elsewhere. I don't know if anyone is out there at 2:30 in the morning but if they are it would be great to talk to someone.
To tell you what is going on with me, it's due to the loss of a child, my daughter was taken from her school on Dec. 15, 2010 by her biological father who lied to a Court to obtain temporary custody. After being in Court with this so called Judge it became evident to me that this situation wasn't about the truth it was about control. So, this judge starts issueing warrants for my arrest and keeps my daughter from me and all of this is based off of hear say. They have no evidence of abuse, no evidence of wrong doing on my part. They just took her. I have been fighting for 1 year and 4 months. Well, it will be four months on the 15th of this month. But who's counting right? I guess you would say that I am a little stressed! Finding an attorney that will go against this judge has been very difficult and still paying on a retainer fee for the one who accepted the job. I have lost faith in everyone around me because of this. I don't trust anyone with anything. My 18 year old was taking advantage of others and lieing to people about getting married, being pregnant, and she virtually ran away from home and went and stayed with my mother and sister which were instructing her to do things at home to anger me. NICE HUH? Yeah, now you might understand why I trust no one. My mother has suffered from phycological problems her whole life and my sister well, she happens to be off the wall! Now, my daughter is gone and I know it makes for a better atsmophere for everyone here but it still hurts that she would do such a thing. ANYWAY, life sucks for me right now. I have tired to preoccupy my mind and keep myself busy but that has stopped working. I actually started my own business because I haven't been able to do what I was trained to do (nursing) because of my panic attacks. Hell, I can't even drive a car anymore! I have a lot of attacks at night time. I wake up soaked in sweat, and I can't breathe. It feels like I am having a heart attack and ofcourse when the thought crosses my mind, it makes the attack worse. I have sleepless nights and days for that matter. The longest I have stayed up is 38 hours. At that point I take something to help me sleep. Which that only lasts about 3 hours or so and then I am back up. I can't do my job that I created for myself anymore because I can't concentrate long enough to stay on task. I make Native American Crafts and go to powwow's and other events, but I think I am not going to be able to follow through with that right now. I don't know what else to do. What used to work isn't working anymore and I have been completely devoured with thoughts of suicide, loneliness, distrust, and the constant fear that I am never going to see my baby girl again. HELP!
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You are not alone! I can't even get, obtain, be given the opportunity, nor is qualify/eligible to receive any social, economic, legal, and medical attention! This is why my health has decline at rapid speed! Gov. Perry has made sure that; I don't receive the necessary help, attention I need, deserves!
You have had a lot to deal with!
Remember that things WILL change and you WILL see your daughter again.
How about herbal remedies for sleep and anxiety?
Prozac only helped my lifelong depression for a while. Cymbalta almost killed me, literally. It can cause suicidal ideation and aggressive behavior.
Keep talking, or typing! There are people who you have never met that actually care about you and your situation. I am one of them. Been depressed for almost as long as I can remember. Several major episodes. Kinda lost count of them. They're not something I want to remember! My point is: You are NOT IN THIS ALONE!
Is it possible that you've gotten into some 'bad medicine'?
Things WILL change and you will change, too.
Please keep us posted.
Peace and blessings to you.
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1 ReactionSweetheart give this to god! he makes no mistakes and he wont leave your side! family and friends will sometimes turn their backs on us but god will never! get on your knees and ask God to fix it and you believe it and watch what happens! god is an awesome god! love ya
God said he can't fail, and it is literately impossible for him to lie! He specializes in anything that you think are impossible! If you are well in line for a miracle, believes in the impossible, doubt/unbelief isn't an option, a lover, doer of his word, in full relationship, connection with Him; through His only begotten Son of the Father, The Kingdom, and Gospel! Then You Are Just Right, In Line For A Miracle and For Him To Move; On Your Behalf! Just Ask Uptopart what I God Has, Will, Shall Do, Did, or Done For Her! Oh It Did Cost Her Much, and Plenty To Be; Where, In, What She Is To Me God!
Hi Willowsunrise,
How are you holding up? You have been in my thoughts and I just wanted to check in on you.
Remember to keep your head up and believe in yourself and have faith that things will work out.
Always available if you need to vent or want any help in finding resources.
Yours,
Roxie
Just read what you are going through. I can totally relate. The biological father of my 6 year old son is doing the same thing to me right now. Has our judge brainwashed. Hang in there. I know how hard it is for us mothers to not be with our children every day. I have only one real friend while going through this as well. All I can advise is pray to the higher being of your understanding, yoga, and find a support group. 12-step groups are very supportive. Or maybe they have a grief help group at a local church. We can get through this! =] =[ =]
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2 ReactionsHow are you holding up? Just thinking of you and hoping that you ars being strong as well as good to yourself.
Take care,
Rox
hi Vanessa
That was very nice of you to offer another person experiencing issues with their children support. You are on point! You both can get through your unfortunate and trying time.
Take care,
Rox
Thank you for your inspiring words. Although it's hard to keep my head up through all this, I have to force myself to do things. I did contact my attorney and he lowered the fee that he originally wanted. And since I have been focused on business, talking to my little Paige is so much easier. I keep telling her that she is loved, and missed and that everyone is praying that she comes home very, very soon. It can be hard, but throughout all this hell, I have found a center. Almost as if I the world is falling apart around me but that there is always something to bring my life in focus.
Thank You for your post. At first, I figured that I was probably the only one that is giong through this hell. You have to hold your breath at times, and slowly bring your focus back on track. I honestly told my husband, that I would rather die a thousand deaths than to go through this. I really don't understand how anyone could put a mother,or a father through this intentionally. But, being Native American I have seen a lot of things. People literally are extremely cruel to one another.