Lifelong Struggle with Depression, Feeling Lonely with It

Posted by Xin @xin, Mar 30, 2012

Just want to talk with others who have had a lif long struggle with depression. Feeling quite lonely with it. I know others who seem to have overcome it completely. I have certainly had some good times but also countless recurrences. Very discouraging!
Xin

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@shirland85

So how do you handle depression when your best friend dies ?
My husband of 26 years passed away from brain cancer. Now that he is gone, I have no one that understands me. Although I am constantly surrounded by family and friends, I'm still alone. Everyone says they understand but they don't. I am just here, I feel like a machine, I go through the motions but have no feelings anymore.

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Hi Shirland,
I lost a dear friend to suicide, my favorite grandfather died when I was little from a massive heart attack (he protected me) and my favorite grandmother died 3 weeks ago after falling and hitting her head and docs could not do much because she was 96. Her age at the time of death didn't matter but what did matter was that for the first few years of my life she helped raise me because my mom had me so young.
I'm sorry for your profound loss which must have left you with such a void. When we lose someone who shielded and loved us for us there's a sense of losing a huge part of our very being. Unless you have felt this emptiness it's hard to understand but it does not mean that others don't care.
This is the best time for you to allow others the opportunity to help you process your loss and in time fill that void.
Easier said than done I know. You are grieving and everyone grieves at their own pace. I try to remember my loved one's by the impact they had on me. Memories can be beautiful and so I hold onto them.
You will be ok. Perhaps not today or tomorrow but you will be ok because he would want that for you. You take your time and allow the feelings to surface and make sure you have someone in addition to your friends here that you can talk to.
Stages of grief are normal my friend and grief counselors can be helpful.
Here if you need me..
Roxie

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Hi Xin,
How are you holding up? Just wanted to check in and say hi..
Try to have a better day.
Rox

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@roxie43

Hi Xin,
How are you holding up? Just wanted to check in and say hi..
Try to have a better day.
Rox

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Hi Xin, You have been in my thoughts too, andI have been wondering how things have been going. Take care Here ifyou need me. Piglit

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@roxie43

Hi Xin,
How are you holding up? Just wanted to check in and say hi..
Try to have a better day.
Rox

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Dear Roxie: I like your picture. You look pretty & young. I used to be young & good looking, now I am just good looking!! Bad joke & you've probably heard it before. I wish I could tell you something good but the truth is worse than you can imagine. I will hang in until my daughter & daughter-in-law are over their health problems. I must be strong for now although inwardly I am hollow.
Sincerely hope your future is not so bleak.
Xjn

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@roxie43

Hi Xin,
How are you holding up? Just wanted to check in and say hi..
Try to have a better day.
Rox

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Hi xin. How are things going. Its okay to feel a bit down at times. Then my way of dealing with down days is that tommorrow is another and ususallly is brighter. Stay strong me dear friend. I am always here if you need me as is others in the community. You can also contact me privatley too if you need to Talk soon Piglit Sometimes we all have that empty feeling, try to think of something that makes you happy. Mine is butterflies. You may be surprised it may help

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@roxie43

Hi Xin,
How are you holding up? Just wanted to check in and say hi..
Try to have a better day.
Rox

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Dear Xin,
Thank you for the compliment. The picture is very old. I'm much older now and that bright smile is not as frequent. I posted this picture because it reminds me of a carefree time in my life and the depression and anxiety were not as intense.
Honey we have to live for today....One. day at a time because tomorrow is not promised to anyone. Depression is horrible and makes a person feel lonely and hopeless but Xin you're not alone because you have us and we care about you and want you to get better.
Are you telling your doctor and counselor how hopeless you're feeling? If you're not feeling better and you're in treatment let them know how you feel please. Sometimes certain medication's can make one feel even worse. So, it's important to let them know.
Try to hang in there with us. We are all diagnosed with something and we are working hard to recover and live meaningful and fulfilling lives and so we are working on these things in hopes that today will be a better day than yesterday.
We are here for you whenever you need us so please don't feel alone.
In my thoughts my dear friend,
Roxie 🙂

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@roxie43

Hi Xin,
How are you holding up? Just wanted to check in and say hi..
Try to have a better day.
Rox

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Hi xin, Please listen to Roxie's kindand wise words we are here for you and you are not alone. We are here for you sweetie all you have to do is to reach out. We understand how you are feeling and we do so want you to get better. Take care my dear friend and remember that you are in my thoughts. Piglit

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Hello! I know exactly how you feel. Have had depression most of my life...

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@klockwood

Hello! I know exactly how you feel. Have had depression most of my life...

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Have u been diagnosed? Hope u have good support...

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Hi Xin,
How are you feeling? We are thinking of you.
Take care

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